atiin's LOUDSPEAKER !

2011-01-21T00:45:00.003+08:00

We've gone through the hard times together and that's the reason why we are still stick as one.

My bestest band .I LOVE DRUMATIX BATUCADA !

2011-01-17T18:10:00.002+08:00

Yaws ! I'M BACK ! Such a long fucking time didn't update my blog. Maaf ye. I just don't feel like updating and now here i am trying to be active back. Let's be nice to this blogger again and spammer fuck you go, SHOOO !Yea, life being great and i'm enjoying perfectly. Thanks Allah for giving me this good times again. Amin ! Woah ,fuck part is where currently i'm not schooling ): Mendak tao i .Waiting for either Private School (School of make up) or April intake for ITE .Hmph .Felt so envy when looking at my ex-classmate wearing the ITE uniforms -.- Takpe ,Allah maha kaya. He will give a chance to me one day.Hee ^^ Oh yes, let's talk about last Saturday! It was CCA open house day! Fun you know.The most memorable day for me and the others senior.Had alot of great times with them. Jumping around like MONKEY! The favourite part is where we making that place like clubbing ! Enjoy rabak JACK !Performing on stage again was AWESOMEXSXSXS ! No word can describe. Shall we have it again Drumatix ?YOOOK ! After the TRALALA sume ,meet my baby and Fafa. Slacked and laugh like a bitch. Oh, i really love that day so much (':

Ni lagi satu si budak nak step sapau ni. Baby i ((: My boyfriend, my favourite boy and everything. Weewit! Seronok kan. He was the guy who always pampered me alot. I love you lah bacen ! The guy whom i love so much, Muhammad Hasif(: Yeaaay, at last i've found someoned who really can make me happy and i hope it will go on and never stop. Stop for just awhile. Baby i admire you so much. Thank you for always being there for me in any way you do. Muacks ! *to your forehead* HEHE . We did go through the ups and down, so yea we manage to handle it. Slalu nye aku lah yang prangai^^ Baby, please be nice to me ye, thank you !No matter how rude i can be, please understand me and remind yourself accept for who i am and i don't mean it when i say out the harsh words to you. Maybe it's because i'm in bad mood. So, make that as reason for your answer whenever i'm freaking make you pissed. Know me well and treasure the worst things of mine and i'll take yours too (': B ,i miss you ):

010111 is my date and he's :D

2010-11-13T22:32:00.002+08:00

Annoying eh satu'satu !Fucking pissed and i know it's my fucking mistake for accusing you but i've already said sorry to you so many times and it looks like you gonna stay mute .Not forgiving me .You make me change the way i think about you and that's the reason why i feel uncomfortable with things that going on.I'm sorry if i can't get my jealousy out of it but you should know why i'm twisting stuff .You get what i mean ?I text you when i miss you and if i don't because i'm waiting for you to miss me .What can i say if you're running away from me .Only god knows why you are doing that .Since morning i'm waiting for your call or neither message .The worst thing is when i feel like crying my lungs out ! I'm dissapointed with myself. I'm sucha morron !

2010-10-05T17:58:00.002+08:00

Here the days that i've been busy with .021010 ,which is on last Friday ,when to Bishan with Fafa Juliann .She accompany me to take my stuff and straight to Tampines to meet minacheeku ,Ikasiao .Had so much fun lah dgn dorang .Laughing like an ass .Fafa when back dulu cause she have to go to her makcik's open house kat Jurong .So 6.45 pm gituu ,she make a moved dgn pika eh ?Pika ke name dier ?I guess .Left me and Ika je .Ape lagik ,gossip lah all the way psl tu Z .HAHAHA .Kau maintain eh minah ,ckp tu abang kau .HAHAHAH .Orang bodoh je pecaye .Then around 8+ we when home by taking bus 3 .Kimek ,senyum je ah ateen sesat .Ingat kn nk turon kat Punggol pehr nel but then i don't know where i drop .Pastu ape lagik ,naek jelah cab pergi Compass Point .At last sampai .Waet busu kat ATM and home .

031010 ,which is on Saturday ,Shima's chalet .So meet NinaLove saye kat Jurong dulu around 1+ .Then while otw to Pasir Ris in the train ,Sot called us and wanted to tag together to Pasir Ris .So waited them at Commonwealth .Meet them half way and proceed to Pasir Ris .Reach there ,meet Ika kat sane .Then accompany Misaki and Sot to White Sand since they wanted to buy some gift for Shima .While walking ,we bang into my primary school friend ,Sheila .So chatted for awhile and exchange number .Continued walking and stop to Tom & Stephanie .Bought some stuff and we make our seperate ways .Sot and Misaki straight to Chalet and we three ,meet Bob at near his busstop .Meet up and walked to his friend place ,slack and have some laughing things .Bob asek kacau ika je ngn chui'chui .HAHAHAHA .Fucking funny siak .Kesian minachee aku ! Tkpe lah ,naseb kau eh .Da jumpe his kawan ,we walked again to the 7-eleven near his house .Chill situ and Keynah texted us to meet faster cause shima is cutting her cake soon .So we make a move at nearly 5 gituuu .Bob pergi a lil bit late .Pastu meet yg laen kat sane .Maintain ah at last potong cake malam -__- .Ramai jugak yg turon .Nearly 30 org .Ribot eh .HAHAHAH .So slack kat situ and Ika balek at 8+ gituu .Her mummy wait for heer liao .After she went home ,potong cake and Bob pon smpi ngn his another 2 friends .Hakym and ape ntah name dier .So ngn dier jap pastu his friend which is abg sedare shima ,dtg kat situ and talk'talk non stop .Aku senyum jelah beh Bob ingat ateen tknk bobal ngn dier ): Balek pon tk bilang .Tapi tak mengape .After that we planned to go Pasir Ris park for thrilling .Belom masok da dgr mcam'mcam .Sheessh ! So jalan jelah .Patah balek chalet around 4 gituu .Pastu dudok kat luar mcm ape smpi kol 8 and then we balek .Tu Hairil pehr klakar nk mmps .Mcam'mcam S kene kacaoo .HAHAHAH .We gerak around 9+ gituu .Dalam train sume flat .Tido mati .From Jurong East mrt ,all go their seperate ways .That's all for that days .

And yesterday ateen ade paper Science and EBS .EBS paper sunggoh irritating .Keep asking to explain .AMALAK ! Bingeti seh .HAHHA .So nari ateen dudok rumah je .Boring woit .Adooi ~ Ingatkn nk pegi rumah pak ngah but tak jadi pulak .Besok then .Besok ateen ade paper Maths and CPA .I DIE MAN ! Maths ateen dalah hancor .ADOIMA ! Bace je lah .Fwuuh ~ After paper ,g rumah pak ngah .Alright ,that's all (: CHALOBETEH !

2010-09-30T03:35:00.002+08:00

Hello readers .I'm back .Maaf da lame tinggal kan ni blog .Ateen busy sangat .That day mama masok hospital balek mah ,tu pasal too busy pegi balek hospital .HEEE (: Now da free siket .Mama da discharged .Saye suke skali !HEHE .But still i have to takecare of mama .Do all the house chore and not letting her to move that much .Doctor told us that maybe mama have to go for operation if the condition is still the same nor worst .Tapi alhamdulillah mama looks fine .13th Oct she got an appointment ,so muke ateen jugak yg teman dier ,since everyone is not free on that day .Harap'harap stable lah ye ,amin (:

So what more should i elaborate eh ?Ohoh ,psl itu anak .Aku give up ! Gasak lah ape kau nak buwat .Luckily i don't say yes when you confess that .Pfft .Naseb mmg baek ! Sweet talk won't make me work at all .Chalo eh kau .Guys are always jerks ! As per normal .No offence . Saturday solo ah .Ape lagi ,tkyah nk bekepet'kepet mcm ape .Ateen suke .Ateen mcm nk ajak ika tapi tak tao if she can torn ke tak eh .Hmm .Oh yeah ,the saturday event is shima's birthday at Aloha chalet .Confirm happening .Amcm ?Mau tag ateen tak ?Aku maintain mcm gini .HAHAHA .bobal ! Sheesh ~

It's been nearly 3 weeks ateen tak gi school .Busy jage mama .Next week da start paper balek .All the best korang !Miss schooling mcm shittys lah kan .Tapi takpe ,saturday dapat jumpe kaki's aku . Heee (: Best nye .

2010-09-17T19:29:00.004+08:00

Those pictures were taken when we're otw home from the hospital .Mama admitted itu hari and now she's back home .Got stomach problem .Get well soon eh mother (': Yeah ,been sitting at home this few days to jage mama saye .If i'm out to school , no one to look after her .So ateen jadi lah anak misali .Hee (: House chore sumer saye yg buwat .Yesterday i cook for mama Nasi Lemak .They say my Nasi Lemak was delicious .*wide smile* .First time oi masak Nasi Lemak .HAHAHAH .I even be my mama's nurse .Kalau tidak ,obat jangan harap dier nak mkn .Aiyoma .Ah ,nari ateen masak ikan belado .I know kakak confirm will say , ' Aku senyum je ah .Time aku kat rumah tak nak masak sedap'sedap .' Too bad lah sister ,i rajen time mama saye saket je .HEHEHE .Baek kan aku prangai cmtu .Anw ,i get to know yg Martino pon admitted that day .Maaf saye tak pegi visit ,was busy ngn mama saye jugak kat hospital .Get well soon okeh encek .Be strong like makcik fateen .Aku mmg sentiase sihat .HAHAHHA .Yeah ,meet you on monday (:

Tomorrow and sunday confirm ribot cause mama say ade orang nak dtg .Visit and raye skali disini .Waduh ~ Stress eka .Stress psl nak kene serve air makanan and best is when i get MONEEEH! HEHEHE .Mengemas jelah aku .Oh yah ! Ateen da order my dream brickenstock slipper .Amat gembira sekali !Yabedabedooo ! The thing arrive in two weeks time .Time will past v v v fast .Teheee (: Great one .

Ape lagik eh ateen nk ckp .Ohh well ,i miss most of my friends .Miss laughing with them ): Anw ,fringe saye da mcm klepeh .I need to cut again .Cepat betol dier grow .Tsk .But i wish my pony tail grow much more faster cause i hate keeping short hair .It sucks big time ! I want my hair to be long so i can do cornrow and braids .Kalau rambot da pendek ,mane boleh buwat .Sedeh siol .

Adoii~ Tapi tkp .I'll wait .

Orang ckp sekarang cinta tgh puseng'puseng mcm gaseng .Opp way now .Girls do bulllshit in the ass but tu lah ,guys doesn't appreciate what did their ex ever do the good and the bad stuff .That's why it turns like a circle now .Ateen pon tak tao lah cause da lame tak bercinta .I rindu you know .Asek kene tipu je ,aku pon naek malas .HAHAHAAH .Wait till the time comes horh .

AKU RINDU SI IKASIAO !

2010-09-07T19:24:00.003+08:00

Hello reader .Maaaf .I know it's been a very long time i didn't update this blog .HEHEHEEH .Busy lah sedare .Oh yeah ,N-level has already started and alhamdullillah ateen boleh buwat but as for tomorrow paper ,waduh ~SERAM ! Cause it's English paper .Important subject .OMG .Doakn semoge ateen pass .Amin (:

Ohh ,tadi ateen g jumpe ni fafa kejap .Lepak'lepak then go Bukit Gombak .I thought of going home straight but mendak lah ,so since da lamer tk jumper tu anak shrek ,jumpe ler .I had great time with her .Laugh like a dumbass .Buwat klakar eh lu pompan .Ingatkn nk jumpe Ika skali but too far lah nk pegi Tampines .Tsk .Takpe eh ika ,meet you after my n-level ends ye .WEEHAK !

So now currently chatting with Ika and Fafa .Tak sabar sunggoh for hari raye (: Left few more days to go .I thought of going Geylang on malam raye but nak kene kemas rumah ,so tak confirm lagik .pantat rola betol .Harap'harap lah ye .Aiya ,i felt so pity for you .I thought i want to make the first move to say hi to you but nah ,i'm still having this ego ): Maaf ye .Hati maseh belom boleh trime .Tsk .Yes ,i might forgive you but not forgetting the fuckness .Ohh hell yeah .Ego saye terlampao besar(:

Kanak'kanak lah lu

2010-09-02T00:20:00.006+08:00

I try not to be one ah but she force me .Dyra syg ,klo kau nak bbl sial ngn aku pon agak'agak lah siket .I start with a very nice conversation beh kau nak start ngan tembelang kau .eh ?Camtu eh ?Salah orang lah oi .Kau da kalah point beh nak turn story pat aku ah ?Baek ah lu. Start nak maki aku sumer ?Cantek .Kau piker aku adek'adek kau eh ?PALABUTO SAMA LU .You're just sec 2 and you have no respect towards me .Aku bukan nk BIG FUCK psl umor aku ah but oh please ,did your parents teach you how to respect ?Bodoh peh anak .Nak aku ajar tak ? HAHAHA .Asl tak happy aku bobal gini ?Panggel ah anjeng kau sume turon .Eh aku cabar kau lah sial !Kau ckp aku bobal world kan ? Aku da bagi kau number aku .Kau tak puas ,kau contact aku ,kau bobal depan muke aku .Aku tunjok kau aku nye world park .Okay ?set pah ? Kau nak bobal feneh ngn aku isit ?Aku tak pasal .Aku tunggu je number tak kenal appear kat inbox and i'll make sure that's you ! Orang baru cakap assalamualaikom ,dah left confo .Pukiwak !Nipple kat tekak mak kau siol .Musibat betol .Gado kat net ape steam eh ?Pade kau da maot ah tu ?Tsk .Takde life betol eh lu .eeeeeeeeee .Tak minat sunggoh .Or isit kau nak aku expose ape yg aku pena label kau ?HHAHAHAHA .alahai ~ Bagi muke siket lah .Kesian pulak tengok ni anak .Kau nk bobal lancaowhey ngan aku ? Kau piker Zaihin leh cover pantat kau ah biler bende da jadi ?FUCK YOU LAH BITCH ! What can he do eh ? What's the BIG thing about him ?Kecoh ah lu .Prangai anjeng tebiar habes .

Ni pukimak nye Zaihin lagi satu nye haram jadah ! Da kalah ,suro aku diam .Pukimak aku je kau mampu nak maki eh ?Mampos taknak !

2010-09-01T19:01:00.002+08:00

Nah ,i swear ,i'm so bored !School holiday .Wah ,killing me man .Sit at home like a dumbass .No one at home .waduh~ No one to talk to .Further more it's n-level next week .Aku pengsan .Haven't prepare anything yet.Wahsey ,MATHS ! tsk .I love my new house tao ~ Mcm ulala~ Oh yeah ,tomorrow will be going to ITE cck for some open house .Macam malas pon ade .Balek lambat !OMG ! Irritating lah ni school .Time nak dekat n-level ,time tu jugak nk buwat outing .WTH !And minah'minah kat sane ,tolong lah jage matemu .HAHAHHA .

Friday doing my hair .Don't know what hairstyle should i do .Frickle minded .Sister accompany me .I suke ^^ Leh spend time ngn dier .Anw ,wanna buy make up stuff for hari raye .My make up all da betraboh .Tsktsk .Waste my money je tao .Anj betol .Fwuuh ~ Sit at home make me feel so restless .Haiya .Anw ,yesterday performance was great .Rehearsal ade mcm tekehel siket but end up everything turns out to be nice but tiring lah .Macam nk tecabot tangan aku hit to snare .Those two teachers are suck big time .Hate our Batucada isit ?Go die lah .Principle is supporting us .I suke ^^Next performance will be at ITE cck on the 27th Sept .What next ?Budi teaching us the new beat till the end .Power ! Get all the beat right okay guys .Time will past very fast and i know the Drumatix batucada can get the beat to the right spot .Weewit !HAHAHA .

Fafa ask me to join her electro crew .Manelah ateen reti nk joget electro .Klo batucada tu ,ateen cnfrm join nyer .Ni electro ,mati aku .I mean i can only dance other thing but not electro .HAHAHA .Kecoh horh .Okay ,now i'm drinking redbull to get back my energy .Klo tak , mcm nk tido je .Restless nak mampos .Ohh ,besok classmate going to watch Haunted Changi but ateen pokai oi .See how ah if i can make it .Wah ,this year belom jejak kaki kat geylang sey .Ateen nak g but no time .Asek busy je .Maklomlah nak kat n-level .Stay lah rumah ): Pantat betol .Yay ! Saturday mama g amek baju kat Larkin and also langsir kat mane ntah .YABEDABEDOOOO ! A very nice green and black .This year rumah ateen colour green .CANTEK ! My favourite colour oit .Anw ,classmate planning to stay over my place one of the hari raye days .Aku suke ^^ Dorang mau torn .Bestbest .

I guess i miss alot of people .ALOT ! I miss my primary school peeps ,i miss some guys ,i miss those asses ,i miss my cousin ,i miss my step siblings and banyak lah orang lagik .Currently chatting with ex-primary school peeps .Confo sume .Macam gerek gtuu .Alright ,i'm done .Lazy to go school besok !Bye

2010-08-30T20:58:00.002+08:00

Woah ,batucada practice were awesome but of course it's tiring lah .We have prepared for performance .New song was great .We playing afoxe and the drum and bass song .WEEHOOOO ~ I suke ^^ TOP people were also powerful .Thumbs up ! FWUUH ~ OHMY .Next week will having my n-level first paper .Astaga ,seram nye ateeen .Yaallahai .But you see ,i keep slacking and don't take things serious .Aiyo .Kecoh lah .Orang tgh one week holiday ,ateen tgh n-level .Sedeh sey aku .Takpe'takpe ,serious dulu ,enjoy later .Yeay !Lepas tu org ckaap ,assamualaikum !HEHEHEHEHE .

2010-08-29T12:23:00.001+08:00

YOU'RE JUST BEING A FUCKER ;D

I had a great time

2010-08-26T21:00:00.006+08:00

HEHEHEHE .Well ,ni when tengah boring .Camwhore lah sendiri .Yeah ,people wondering why am i wearing make up in this picture .I just came back from somewhere with mama lah .Best tao .I go jalan'jalan ngan mama .Anw peoples !I would like to say ,i can have this smile now (: I suke ^^ Woah ,i swear i miss batucada so much ): They say the rehearsal was totally mess out .Isit peeps ?Ohh ,why like that .Nevermind .Mistake can be improve ;D So yeah ,nak tao something ?Semlam kekek nak mampos .Aku angkat baba aku .Pasal dier tak sampai nak bukak langsir .HAHAHAHA .Cute eh kite .Angkat mengakat .But of course he heavy lah !Dudok betol'betol atas my shoulder and i'm not shouting but i'm laughing like an ass .Isn't that weird ? HAHAHAHA .Pelik lah aku .Tapi mcm cool .Anak angkat bapaknye ~ WHOOPWHOOP .I had a great time today but lil bit sleepy ah .Padahal da banyak tidor tao .Macam babuuuuuuuuuuui lah aku .Wah ,break record ! I didn't attend school for 1 week ! And i miss schooling .I miss my minah'minah gems !Alahai .Next week i'll try to go to school wokay .Rindu korang sangat'sangat ! Okay ,at last tomorrow Kakak and brother Feroz balek .At least i won't be alone .I got someone to talk to ,someone would make me smile .KANKANKAN ?Fuck yeah .Okay ,sudah .Bye .

2010-08-26T06:19:00.001+08:00

BATUCADA PEEPS ! I MISS YOU GUYS BADLY ):

I'm sorry for not attending those practice .Be back on MONDAY .

2010-08-26T01:14:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH ! You guys saw this picture up here ?I'm so gonna do this cornrow and braids after my N-level .I promise you guys man ! I suke ^^ Weewit ;D Woah ,so temptation !Tsk .Cepatlah n-level habes .Aku tak sabar .Macam ulala gituu .SLURPS ! After that ,i can keep flipping my hair .HEHEHEHE .Amek kau ! Rambot aku nanti da macam mamasita in the street .Cheybah .Itu sahaje nak update BECAUSE ! I can't wait for n-level to finish !!

2010-08-25T18:48:00.004+08:00

Eh tengok ! Tu kawan baru i .Bell .She's the person who been accompany me .Cute nak mampos .HEHEHEH .Yeah ,busy with packing .Currently at nenek house .Buke disini .Mama & baba buy nasi ambeng .Yummy !

2010-08-24T22:11:00.003+08:00

I'm tired to think about this .Thanks to you ,thanks for making me turn into this way .I know you gonna love it if you know about this bullshit .Haish .Babygirl nina ,i'm sorry .I just need some time to get rid everything before i meet you guys .Yes ,i know you miss me .I miss you guys much more you know .I'm sorry for absent from school for three days .I'll be back to school on thurs kay dear .I'm too disappointed with everything that has happened .I just need time to be alone .To refresh all over again .I might sound like rubbish but only me ,myself know how i suffer over this thing .How i suffer from this pain .How deep is the pain .How hurt am i .It's how the way you hurt me and what i can describe you is only ,heartless .You're the person with no heart ,no heart with no brain .Maybe god forget to spare you a heart or either a brain .You're such a human being with no attitude acted .Your way is just to hurt me ,hurt me deeply till i can't take any break .What have stucked into your brain untill you treat me this way ?What ? You throw those words that i didn't do .What you think about my feelings huh ?Haish .What you do now is to listen whatever she say .Things that are not true ,you throw the point to me .Is this fair enough ?Tsk .I'm waiting for karma .You have to believe in karma cause i do .I don't wish the bad things to happen to you lah but i want you to feel how i feel all this while .I suffer so much .You're the caused of this suffer .I hope you're happy with your life and also with that lady .Minah ,you won this game .Not worth if you win or lose cause in the end you get nothing ;D And now ,just make a move to your own path and stop stalk me .I'm done .

This is how things start to change

2010-08-24T17:50:00.006+08:00

The more i hear this cover ,the more i feel like crying .Sume bende tkde yg nk menyenangkan .You disappear and come back to say those things .Hurt me with every words you said .You just don't understand how it feels being hurt repeatedly .I'm tired to face all this .Thanks for saying that any way .You told me to think before i do something and why not you ?Why not you think before you say whatever you like huh ?You're fooling with this 'i love you' but yet at the same time you don't know what it stands for .Speechless .I don't really get what you want .All you need is her now ,you get whatever you want ,so why not you make your own way now ?And kau pompan ,jangan sembarang ckp yg aku panggel org suroh getak kau !Klo aku nak getak kau ,aku tak banyak bunyik ,aku teros lempang je muke kau !Nak buwat criter pon agak'agak lah siket .Harap pakai tudong ,mulot mcm pompan tepi jalan .PALABUTO sama lu ! Idiot betol .Nak buwat org gado no. 1 .Pasal kau da dpt dier and he is in your side now ,tu pasal bobal nak maen shoot jer ! Kau salah org lah sial ! Just mind your words !

2010-08-24T01:22:00.003+08:00

I feel like killing you now !

You make everything turns out to be haywire .

If i know all this gonna happen ,

i won't get closer to you till i fall deeply in love.

And you make your own way now that easy .TSK !

I don't understand why do guys can't stick to one .ASSES !

Encek you left me out ):

2010-08-23T14:47:00.002+08:00

I miss being like this again with you .Seeing those pictures of you and her make me feel like it's not worth where i got those days with you in the past .Isit ?Does it worth ?Haish .I don't know why can't i move on but you see ,you even made this bigger step to forget me .Waduh ~ Kau buwat peh senang but aku ?Tsk .I wish i could sleep on my bed forever and never awake .I just want to be like other teenagers .Living in a happy life with their own way .What am i suppose to do when i always get this problems ?Sickening ass .Yeah ,i told you to move on and end everything but i wasn't know you're that easy to move on .I'm tired .I'm tired to keep thinking about his stuff .Well ,i don't know why i keep viewing your profile .Maybe i miss you or i miss those past time .I just need someone to be with .Someone who can always accompany and guide my way .I want someone to take this love and hold it tight .I don't want it to be a temporary .I want you to only have me and i also want only you with me .Hmph .I miss lying on your shoulder .I miss the way you kiss and you hug me .I really miss that .Yes ,people keep telling me to move on and forget about him .Oh hell yeah ,i want it but not that easy lah kan .I even have to heck all memories that been keeping inside .Betol ? I have to stay strong and now i keep hiding my ass at home ):

2010-08-23T06:26:00.002+08:00

Haish .Was totally pissed .I don't know what more to say .Wondering if that's my fault by waking you up .Yeah ,i know you're sleepy but ....... Haish ,speechless .I even shed my tears when you said that .Waduuh ~Was absent from school again because of what has happened just now .I've bath and even wear my school uniform but nah ,was too disappointed .Throw my phone and sit inside brother's bedroom .

The sadness part is where i show temper to Ijat too .WALAOWHEY ! I'm so stupid .Orang tak bersalah pon kene marah .Tsk ! I'm so sorry .I was too fed up just now and aaaaaaaaaaah ! Get irritated too with her attitude .She slam the door when i was inside mama's room .Ahso ,peh binget aku .That's why i feel like arghhhh ! Encek saye mintak maaf banyak'banyak .Tak sengaje nak mengamok kat awak .I'm so sorry .You see ,now got three things that real mess out .Firstly ,is what has just happened this morning .Secondly ,quarrel with Ijat .Thirdly ,this fucking mood swing ! Wah , irritating pe aku .Selalu camni tao ,her second off day always got something must be quarrel about .Tak sah kalau tak gadoh .

I hope everything gonna get back as one .I'm sorry about this morning ,i'm sorry for showing my temper at you and i'm sorry for myself .Mood swing , go away .I'm tired ):

2010-08-22T00:10:00.002+08:00

Stop being an asshole lah .Can you ?Penat siak layan kerena kau .Mcm soyal tawuk ?Bulan puase bey lagik nk buwat orang binget .Tsktsk .Childish ah you .Prangai zaman mak aku habes .HAHAHAHA .Lmao .Blame yourself cause you force me to do this and said that .I suke ^^ Kau nak maen game yg gerek'gerek ,aku boleh tolong entertain okay ?I even said your name out now ,amaciam ?Ade best ?Haish .I don't know why i'm not being myself this days .It's really not me .Maybe everything start to change when you left me .Waduhh ~ Aku mcm nk meleleh ni .How ? Alah ,ateen !Wake up and stop give faces and that's the fact where i'm really tired to quarrel over this thing .Bring your ass off lah .Kau mcm kental buah pleh ah .Aku binget nk mampos .PM kau sunggoh best ey .Buwat aku ketawe kuat'kuat .Oi !Stop being a biatch behind her back cause i don't think you gonna tell everything A-Z kan .I dare you lah naz !

Alright ,feel really pissed lah ngn ni anak .Aku mcm nk amek chilling pill sampai bile'bile tak bangon .Boleh ?HAHAHAHAH .Macam kental lah pulak .Nothing worth lah kalau aku hilang kau ,it's better orang ckap .Yeah ,i'm the new side of ateen ,not the ateen that you've known before .Nak tao asl ?Pasal kn ,KAU BUWAT AKU JADI GILE NGAN NI SUMUE ! Bye )':

2010-08-21T01:37:00.003+08:00

Awak'awak ,tengok kat bawah ,minachee saye update kn .whoopwhoop ^^ I've update her dead blog too (: Grandmother story to talk about .HAHAHAHA .I suke .Yeah ,still chatting with this Nina Karina and ntah lah sape name dier .Tak ingat makcik .So bored .I'm spending this midnight to relieve my stress .waduuh ~pecah tao otak cmni .tsk !Pakcik ,kau maintain ah .Aku tunggu kau online bey at last kau g jamming .Senyuman yg paleng lebar untok kamu .HAHAHHAHA .Nevermind ,there's always next time .kankankan ?Aiya .I keep thinking about those past time but haish .Asal lah kau ckp cmtu ?Tak mengerti sey ateen .Hurtful pon ader .I don't mind if you gonna say it in a nice way but ey please lah ,aku bukan bahan anjeng kau yg nk kene sembah banyak kali baru ego kau boleh hilang .PALABUTO SAMA LU ! I tell you lah Naz ,you can make your way as far as you could from me but jangan lah maen ni game .Darah teros boleh shoot naek tinggi okay .Kau nk buwat hal ngan dier ,tu your pasal tapi bobal ngn orang biar ade care siket .Da baek tu aku nk gi wish .At least aku ingat lah suek !Binget siak otak .You make my life turn into haywire lah boy .Ey go ,go away and don't ever come back .Aku mcm nk pakai clorox and polish this brain .Let those every of the memories between me and you fade away with empty minded left .Aku suke ^^ There's no more you in me anymore .I won't accept any sorry from you .NO MORE !Believe me .Memang lah everyone deserve a second chance but is it's for you ,gi mampos !Aku penat .Penat sangat'sangat .Otak buntu siak biler ngan kau .And i even cried every night for this stupid guy .Am i like brainless ?Yeah ,i am .Cause this fucking guy make my life like BULLSHIT ! Ey FUCK OFF LAH ! Don't because of her or because of small tiny things ,you get a big misunderstanding with me .LOL .Kau prangai memang mcm doggy dog .Kau nk tengok aku nye gile ,let's have this now .You don't even appreciate what i do for you and fuckness you return me .You're welcome cb !Kau piker aku heran kalau kau tkde ?Oh hell yeah .Kau nk ego ,aku tk pasal .I don't give a damn lah fuck !Alright ,i'm done .Lepas kn geram babe !

2010-08-20T23:56:00.002+08:00

ohh ohh ninabelo here updating for my bbygirl 'ateen milley' ! weee !
hehe ! actually i got nothing to say but she insist . tsk ! haha . =)
i miss you larh ateen ! go sch larh ! potengpoteng ! ape nk jady niey . tsk !
well nlevel is coming so study hard okae bbygirl ! =) make ur parents proud tawuk !
heee! wey blajar tau , tkmo psl itu anak kau tk abesabes saket hati . tsk !
luperkn sudaa itu anak . dier dah adr yg punyer so fuck off . adr jantan laen that deserve you better aper . true enough ! hahah ! okaeokae . so tkmo pikir2 lagy . uat bodo ajer .
dorang itu sume pragai doggy dog dog . hahha ! ish tk baek nyer aku . haha . sorry yer ateen if i tuh harsh . haha ! kene biase kn mah . okae now i tktau nk ckp aper lagy .and after nlevel we party all the tyme aites ! haha ! tk sabar larh sayer . haha ! so till we meet again aites ! iloveyou ateen milly ! =) . and thanks for updating my stupid blogg .

2010-08-18T00:36:00.004+08:00

Real stalker .Fuck the world man .Who cares !Kau teraser ?So ?Pegi mampos lah !You get what you want ,and now ,what's up ?Still not satisfied huh ?Oh yeah ,aku lupe ey ,kau maseh kat dalam category abus .CB .I might sound so meant but people won't know how your meant acted like .Da ludah ,jilat balek ey.Pecah ah lu .You can show your fuck face or either your sweet words infront of them but not with me ey sialan .You're fucking irritating lah girl .Take him and fuck off !Don't ever come back to show off that evil balls .I don't give a damn !Karma will hit you back real hard ! I believe in that .Pray hard ey pompan .Kau nk suro aku baek ngn kau ?Pegi jahanam ! I'll smile for the best one .MOTHERFOOK YOU !

Woah ,ignore the post up there .For someone who still want to label herself as STALKER .whoopwhoop ^^ So yeah ,gue amek cuti panjang .I suke ~ Prelim has started .Last monday was my English paper .Three paper in one day .Otak buntu kejap but paper 1 or 2 ,can't remember .Was quiet tuff .Manage to do it and that same goes to my Malay paper .Up coming paper will be CPA .Hope the best one .Woosh ~Body been aching this few days .Don't know why .Haish .I can't deny that i still can't forget about how our way moving on .You seems like doing fine without me around you and i'm happy to see that ;D Deeply ,i still hold those memories tight eventhough i show this smilling face or throw some temper towards some people .I know people could understand how my situations look like .I'm sorry ey krg .Sometimes ,i can't control my anger .Stupid girl with stupid mindset . hmms . Pakcik ,why when i said that ,you say no ?You should be saying yes .I know you do .Be happy always .

I miss you so fucking much

2010-08-14T15:14:00.005+08:00

I miss having this moment with you again .

I miss the way you hug me ,i miss everything we had together

.I knew you would make this decision cause you love her more .

I know who am i to you compared to her .

She deserve everything .

But i don't understand why does everything turn into this way .

In a sudden .

I wish god could give me more love than everyone do .

1 year plus and not even 1 month is totally different .Way far .

Maybe i make a wrong move to love someone again .

If i know all this gonna change ,i wouldn't let anyone take this love .

I'm too emotional and having this bullshit tears .

I hate where i have to cry over and over again for everynight and just because of this love .Haish )': Using 'i love you' could make someone's feelings change and you don't understand what does 'i love you' stands for .

You might say you're not using me but for me ,i'm just a stupid an idiotic kid to stuck with those words .Come on lah Ateen ,be strong .

Don't get easily stucked .Naz ,i'm happy for you .

I hope you and Fhy could build a love as one again .

Yeah ,bedek lah klo ateen ckp ateen tk jealous or kecewe but what to do .

We are not fated .I'll pray the best one for you guys .

What i need now is just a peacefully life .

It's time for me to concerntrate on my studies .

I'm hurt ,really'really hurt .

I'll try my best to get everything up and forget about the past .

Yes ,it's not that easy for me to move on or either make a big steps to look to the brightest side but slowly in will make me move bit by bit .Haish .

Thanks for this love (': I'll keep those memories tight to myself .

Throw that beads away ,so nothing can remind you back about me .

2010-08-14T00:00:00.004+08:00

Which way should i go now ?Too stress about what has just happened .I'm tired of crying over this thing .Haish )': Ya allah ,tabahkn lah hatiku ini .Fasting month sia bey lagik ley buwat aku cmni .What must i say kan .Aku redha ngan ni sume .Biar allah saje yang membalasnye .Otak boleh serabot ey .I told you ,you can make your decision and i'll make a way for you .Dulu janji per janji .Sekarang ,orang ckp ,kite senyoom jelah .I shouldn't be that sad .If i know things gonna turn into this way ,i'll just take my ass off earlier .Yeah ,it's already past .Just wishing the best for you .A very best .Hoping things can patch back .I love the way you lie .I really love it .Be happy for the one you love and everything gonna stays alright .Zaihin ,you can ask her yourself if she really sincere .I didn't mean to make things worst .I was out of anger and it burst .I'm sorry .I have to stay strong .Eventually i need more time to get settle down .Kau da maki pastu beg .Haish .Ape punye orang . You left me speechless ,so speechless .I was like bursting my eyes out with this tears .Too emotional .

The night with wicked aura were really awesome .They make me dance like ulala ~ Budi ,you're the best man ! I loike ~ Lots of fun .I miss those party .Saw alot of people there .Hi here and there .Guess what ,i saw the Yukinchii's too .Hug that gala .Lame oit tk nmpak .Rindu skali .HEHEHE .After had party with the Wicked Aura ,proceed to Fort Canning Park .Chill there for awhile and off to keynah's cribs .The nights were really great .Love it but no bus to go home .kekek ey kite .I would like to have that again .Oh yeah ,the performance was fine but just on the YOG was cock up .Wah ,wednesday will be the last day for the Sec 4's .I'm so gonna miss the Drumatix peeps .Yeah ,hell out for this wednesday okay !

2010-08-06T01:35:00.002+08:00

Will be a random post .Sorry for the long absence .Was busy with school ,batucada and for performance too .The members were all well prepared .HAHAHAHA .So yeah ,will be absence again for blogging due to some outings .I'm away for like three days .Saturday ,going out with Naz and sleepover to Nina's crib .Sunday having performance for National Day block party at Jurong .Monday will be watching Wicked Aura at the ECP with siblings ,batucada member and also Naz .Hee ^^ We siblings and some of them will be torning there .Enjoying the National Day nights .I loike ! Can't wait to watch the Wicked Aura performance .GO BUDI GO ! We Drumatix ,will be there to support you pepos !Woohoo ! Skip class again for like two days but actually those school days were really fun and the cold weather was like ulala ~Don't know why lah kan .Lately ,i've been accompanied by Naz .Cool yaws .Who say i can't move on ?Everyone got the rights to move on alright .He was awesome .Been chatting ,talking and make the lame jokes all day .Yeah ,planning to go Bugis on the Saturday cause he wants to buy his stuff there and now then it's my turn to accompany him .I'll make that 7 August a perfect day for you okay budak ?HEHEHEH .Feel like typing and none stop .I miss blogging lah kan .It's been days didn't update this dead blog .I hope this three days will be a fantastic days .AMIN .Ohh ,i've bump into this one video at the facebook and those guys were like WOW !Their voice are super nice but actually there were my primary school friend .Tak sangke lah drg ley nyanyi .Keep watching .Great man ,got the potential to join any competition .Thumbs up guys ! :D So yeah ,i'll update more about the three days outing and upload more pictures .I promise okayokay readers .Byebye .Mau tido .Selamat Malam awak (:

2010-07-30T14:49:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MY PEOPLE ^^

Didn't attend school but hell yeah ,i did the house chores .I did cooked for family too (: Wehoo .So yeah ,see the people up there ,miss dorang woit .Absent from batucada for this few days .Being lazy lately .Don't know why but yet there's performance on the 8 & 12 August .Will see how it goes lah ey .Yeah ,recently performance was great and pretty awesome .Imagine the snare player was only two person and the both of them was a lady but oh well it sounds much more powerful .It was me and Keynah you know .Usually we will stop playing when there's back up snares but on that day it just the both of us ,so we played without stopping .Awesome huh ! *Ching siket keynah * HAHAHAHAHAHA .I'm proud for the both of us .YEAAAAH ! That Syawal mau mati ah .He did come for the morning performance but not for the night performance .Ass him ! But at least we could make it ey Keynah *kening naek-naek* .So now ,practices will learn the new song which the batucada members told me and for goodness sake Budi is back man ! I'm lovin it .We prefer Budi teach us :D I'll come for the next practice wokay ? Now then i can feel the temptation of hitting my snare . Ms Noraini ,I miss you ):

Yesterday school was fine but something happened on the last period .I was bursting my anger out .Don't take advantage when people giving you face .You're such a MOTHERFUCKER ! I'm out of control .I feel like punching your face you know .Cb you !Kau tunjok ah kau nye world park lagi .Aku tunjok kau ,aku nye tembelang .Okay pah ? Stupid childish fucker !

At last we've done with Nlevel oral and also EBS coursework .I loike ! But Nlevel is not over yet .Fucking worried about studies .I've been slacking all way long .Not studying .Haish .Left few more months to N-Level .Ohmy ,so scary .NINA KARINA BTE HAMDAN !HELP ME OUT WITH MATHEMATICS ! Ahso .

Planned to start revising .Fwuhh ~ Oh yeah ,tomorrow having bbq with family to celebarate July babies .WEEHHO (: Gonna have alots of fun .Aunties coming too .I miss you people .

I guess now i'm leading my own way .My own way from everyone and i love the way i am now .No one can control me now ,no one can judge me now .I'm happy living without you .Very happy .Go away and never come back okay .No boyfriend ,no problem and i'm gonna love it .Just wait till karma hit you damn hard .

Alright ,that's all .CHALOBETEH (:

2010-07-25T18:56:00.003+08:00

I don't expect things to turn into this way .

I hate to have this feeling .What must i say now ?

everything gonna stay alright ?Haish )': Dissapointed is all over .

I miss you ,i miss the way you kiss me ,i miss the way you hug me ,i miss the way you call me baby, i miss those sweet moments and in my dream i've kissed your lips a thousand times .

How am i suppose to accept this now .

By telling me that you're not in the mood to hear my explanation wasn't make me peace ,though i'm the one should be listening to yours .I cried for the whole night for this .

What's going on huh ? It's already obvious that you got someone else .

You're a jerk ! I'm hurt .Really really hurt )':

People keep saying that 'I thought you would last long' but what to do .

He choose to be in this way . Before saying people ,mirror yourself .

Yes , i know everyone ain't perfect but it's a question mark for him to make this decision.

I can't think for the time being .I feel like crying my lungs out .Haish )':

There's always karma and i do believe in karma .

I have to stay strong now .Forget about the past and look forward for the future .

Everyone ,thanks for the advice .Appreciated much .

2010-07-21T13:41:00.006+08:00

Hope everything gonna be pretty fine .Skip from batucada today cause i think this week lesson was freaking bored but actually this coming Saturday is our peformance day at Bukit Timah Primary School in the morning and the block party at night .I'm craving over performances .I hope you guys gonna make it everything nice ~And if i'm not wrong ,Saturday will be the last day to perform till the N-levels ended .WTH !

Sometimes i can't deny that i miss you .Maybe you might see that i look like i don't bother anything bout you but actually ,i do .Fwuuh .What actually gonna happen huh ?You got someone else that always make you smile now and i'm happy for that .I always wish you the best .Yeah ,you don't feel lonely now cause someone seems to replace me .Great one :D You rock his life lah girl .Thank you and i'm sorry boy for the passing days .Thanks for the advice ,matku .

Ohh yes ,had a nightmare about ex-boyfriend ,Alep .HAHAHAHA .Weird .It's been long time we didn't contact each other and in a sudden about him .Crap man .So yeah ,doing nothing at home just helping grandma with house chores .Yesterday was mama 39th birthday .What i wanna say now is ;

Mama,Happy 39th Birthday .

May all your wishes come true and you're a greatest

mother .A greatest mother of all .

I'm sorry if i'm being rude to you all the time .

Sometimes i can't control my anger .

And i know its damn fucking rude .

HAHAHAH ,Whatever it is ,I still love you ,always and forever .

It's been 16 years we together and you're always in my heart whereever i go .

Since i'm born ,you are my mother and you are my father .

I know how hard you find money to raise the three of us .

And you don't give up for everything .

That's what makes me love you so much .

Once again ,Happy 39th Birthday .I love you so much mama <3

31st of July will be celebrating the July's babies .Rasul ,Mak Ngah ,Brother ,Atok ,Mama ,Aunty Bernice and also Brother Feroz .Gonna have alots of fun with mother's side .Let's party people .N-levels are coming and i have this habit for not coming to school i don't know why .Walaowhey ,i hope i can this attitude.I'm just worried about this N-levels .Mother Tongue oral is just next week .OHMY'OHMY .Prelim is just next month .WTH ~ So fast .Nevermind .Study first then enjoy .That's the best way kankan .I hope i can get the course hat i want .Oh yeah ,fasting month is also on the next month .Cannot wait lah dey .Fasting month then HARI RAYA ! Wee ^^ August will be changing hairstyle .I want to do something different .Yabedabedoo !

2010-07-18T21:07:00.005+08:00

Alahai ~ Cute nyer i .HAHAHAHAHAH :DDDDD

Yes ,you make me feel stucked up and i hate it .The whole day didn't get to text baby .Prepaid low ): Sodei sik .Oh yeah ,had a great weekends .I enjoy it .Anw ,i've bought a birthday gift for dearest brother :DDD .I hope you like it wokay ! I guess baby is mad at me cause didn't text him for the whole day .I'm sorry boyfriend .Tomorrow will explain wokay .Oh yeah ,monday will be a busy day .School till 1.30 pm .Batucada till 5+ 6 pm .Night class ended at 9.3o pm .Imagine that .Tekopek otak cmni .Hmms .But nevermind ,N-level coming woii .Study hard siket .HAHAHAHAHA .After night class ,parents fetch me home.Wee^^ Little princess .Cheybah . I loike *Wink* Wondering what am i gonna do at school ey ?Nina said ,sleeping .HAHAHAHA .Depents on the subject .If it's a boring subject ,i'll sleep or start to chat around .Makcik'makcik stuff lah kan .We becok what .But gerek woi .The class is so the kecoh .HEE (: Tomorrow morning the first thing i'm gonna do is to message or call boyfriend to make an apology about today's stuff .So sorry hor mat . I love the way we are :DDDD Mcm retarded couple but still i love you to the fullest ! Can't wait for the night class tomorrow .Happy banget (:

2010-07-16T12:25:00.004+08:00

Yesterday had alot of fun at shima's crib.Thank you baybeh .Ribot yang lepak .Woo ^^ School was also fine yesterday but mcm chibye tkd batucada .FUCK ! Besar kn budak TOP .ASSHOLES ! Sot siak kejap .Postpone again to Monday and Wednesday .Teacher oi ,24th July da lah ade performance .Kau nk kiter telungkop pe .Aiyo .Tu time nk berak ,tu time jugak nk carik jamban .SUAR ! Further more this year our last year whey !Binget pe aku .Takpe ,bersabar . Chatting with NinaLove and Areed now .Nak tao something ,fucking bored tao alone at home .AHSO !Oh yeah ,we got another invitation kat hotel for Batucada .YABEDABEDOO ! Hope this time round will be perfect kay Drumatix .GOGOGO ! So yeaah ,absent from school again .Kaki's sumer absent bey tkkn i alone kan .WAHSEYLIAO .Sit at home alone to pulak. What to do .Cumer webby ngn areed sahaje .Mcm mintak kene debik .HAHAHAHAHHA .The girls went to watch movie but i can't make it .P O K A I ~ Sedeh sey aku .Boyfriend skrg asek busy jer ngn work .No time liao .Pantat begoyang woii ~ Every post i have to say this at my blog ,I MISS MY BOYFRIEND !! I really do .Kalau nk kuar besok ,duet mane mau carik ,mama sendirik tgh pokai .Aku senyum sajelah .TSKTSK ! Baby ,mane kamu sekarang ? Aku kangen samer kamu sik donkey . Hmms .So yeah ,everyone is home ,just brother and baba je lom balek .Feroz and kakak is here yaws .I loike .At least i got someone to talk to .Funn kan .Oh yeah ,i thought of finding brother's present but tu lah ,manusie ni sumer tknk teman ,penat .AHSOSEK betol .Tomorrow wokay brother .Alright ,that's all for today post .Will update more when i'm free .CHALOBETEH (:

2010-07-14T16:23:00.007+08:00

Missing B A T U C A D A ! Tomorrow there's batucada but Mr Hadi is teaching us .Budi is away to Germany ): Sedeh siak .Waduh ~Like finally get to go to school tomorrow .I miss my kaki's .Aiya .Fever lah kan aku .Haiya ~ Feeling something down .I don't feel really good now .Just banging through someone .Why do all this keep coming in and out ?I need a peace life ,please .

I just need my boyfriend to be with me not you anymore .Haissh .Missing boyfriend so much till i shed my tears .TSK ! Hunns ,i want to spend my time with you ..I miss you like the sun misses the flower ,like sun misses the flowers in the depths of winter ,instead of beauty to direct it's light to ,the heart hardens like the frozen world which your absence has banished me to .A hundred hearts would be too few to carry all my love for you .Aiya .Oh god ,give me a long lasting relationship with boyfriend .I need him .Don't seperate us cause our heart and souls are connected .All i wish to be always on your side .Fwuhh ~ Aku rindu kau nk mampos :'( I want to hold your hearts through out the days .While typing ,tears keep running down my cheeks ,

cause boyfriend make me miss him so much .Oh dear ,we've been busy with our stuff this few days and we don't even have time for ourself .Eventhough time keep stopping us ,hope everything gonna stay fine and you don't be cheeky bombom kat luar tuu cause god will help me to look after you .I love you more than any word can say ,i love you more than every action i take ,i'll be right here loving you till the end (':

2010-07-13T20:13:00.002+08:00

You make things turn into disaster .Org kasi muker ,kau tak perlu nk take advantage pe .You are destroying everything you know .ASS YOU ! TSK !Pape lah ey .Cut it off .Oral yesterday was terrible .Scary berry oit . Nervous like hell .Didn't attend to school today .Due to fever .Go away and never come back ,please .Ohmy ,Mt oral will be on the 29 July .Need to prepare again .Aiyoyooyo ,hope it will better this time round ,Amin .Oh yeah ,i miss boyfriend so much .Boyfriend did told me that too. 8 days without meeting,imagine that .Tak mcm siak tuu .But both of us was too busy with stuff lah kan .Haiyo .Baby ,let's watch movie one day okayokay .Aku rindu kau nk mampos .Will spend that fucking days together alright (: Wee ^^

2010-07-08T19:48:00.007+08:00

Random Picture ^^

Hello readers .Alright ,will be doing a proper post now .School was fun yesterday .Having photo taking .Others were like making alot of noise .It's a class photo anw .Very fun hor !The last year of secondary school life ,so won't miss it .Gonna miss those peepos .Just now didn't attend school .Was too lazy .Sit at home do house chores .Luckily there's no course work today .Fwuhh ~ Wake up at 7+ am ,read the message that boyfriend send to me .Cair i skejap :D He texted me at 8 in the morning .Replied ,lappy and went back to sleep .HAHAHAHA .Sleepy oit .Ohh yeah ,abangku ,HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY .MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE WOKAY ? I LOVE YOU MAN ! Hee (: Tomorrow will be having his birthday party at Pasir Ris Park .Yabedabedooo !Overnight there .Will have so much fun before N-level oral start .Kaki gereks is tagging too .Kan best tu .Let's camwhore ladies .Thought of asking boyfriend to come along but he having outting with his NS friends .Nevermind .Understand hor .So yeaah ,hopefully tomorrow plan will goes smoothly .Ohmy ,i loike .Missing boyfriend badly ): Everytime i hear boyfriend's voice ,i hear another reason to keep him forever .Wee ^^ I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY OI ! Today sleeping at parent's room .HAHAHAH .Scary nak tido sorang'sorang but still using lappy (: Currently chatting msn confo with Nina, Kym and Fafaah yaws .Talking about tomorrow stuffy .Mcm gerek jer besok .Ribot .HAHAHA .Alright ,i'm done with posting .Gdnight semue .Will update bout tomorrow party okay (: Sayonara .

I LOVE MOHD HAIKAL .

If kisses were the water ,i would give you the sea ,

if hugs were the leaves ,i would give you a tree ,

but if love was time , i would give you eternity :D

2010-07-07T20:12:00.002+08:00

School was fine ,pretty fine .Yesterday had a great time with boyfriend and i'm totally lovin it .

Wee ^^ Had maths lesson for 2 HOURS ! OMG .

Otak went blank but what i actually do is talk and do some of the sums .

After school went to lepak for like 45 mins and home .

Saturday going to brother birthday party .Can't wait for that night .Yahoo !

Tomorrow course work ,wth ! And yes ,i miss Mohd Haikal so much .

We will feel that misses every seconds even if we don't think about that person and

i swear ,i miss my boyfriend .

Hee (: Alright ,done .It's a random post . Sayonara :D

2010-07-05T20:15:00.002+08:00

HALOHA ~ Youth Gig performance was really awesome .Drumatix did a great job .I LOVE YOU GUYS !Keep watching the videos repeatedly and yeaah ,today was a Youth Day ,it's a holiday .Enjoyed sitting at home .Movie marathon with sister as she also having her second off .Tomorrow be meeting boyfriend and i'm so excited .TEEHEE (: Thought of uploading the batucada video that we performed other day but something has been stopping .Need alot of time to upload the video .No worries ,will be upload that video soon .WEE ^^ .So yeaah ,next monday having N-level english oral .OMG ! Getting prepared for it .Alright ,that's all .

SAYONARA (:

2010-06-30T22:33:00.003+08:00

Wee ^^ I miss blogging yaws .Ohh yeaah ,school was fine .Maths lesson was like 2 HOURS ! OMG .Imagine that .Pantat boleh meletop but yet this brain is still working for those sums .Oh yes ,guess what ? I already receive my N-level T I M E T A B L E ! WOW ~ Oral coming .Scary .What should i plan from now for my N-level ?Hopefully i can catch up with everything that has been left behind ,AMIN .Yes ,like finally i can spend my time with deary Drumatix this Friday and Miss Noraini is coming .Missing them ^^ Let's shut it down the Yuhua CC ,people .I'm so excited .Teehee (: Anw ,i miss my Mohd Haikal -_- He already went to bed .Maklomlah ,orang tgh NS but FRIDAY will be his P.O.P ! Happy banget .His time will be mine .Kan b ?HAHHAHAHA .So yeaah ,i hope this r/s will stays calm ,smooth and sexy .So far ,so good .I LOIKE ^^ Thought of watching Eclipse with boyfriend on the Saturdaay but then his makcik got kenduri .So i have to understand .We planned to meet on the Tuesday .Yay ! Seronok .But not watching Eclipse .Going lunch with Mohd Haikal .That's okaay too (: When am i going to watch my E C L I P S E ? Someone accompany me please -___-

Selamat Malam ,Mohd Haikal (:

You put the brightest smile on me ,i love you baby .

2010-06-27T17:33:00.002+08:00

HELLOHELLO ~ Sorry for not updating this blog .Been lazy .Eyes is getting better now .Ohmy ,tomorrow school re-open .FOOOK ! MALAS NYE AKU ~But there's also rehearsal at Yuhua CC for the 2nd July performance .Waduh ~ With 1 month holiday is not enough lah .School re-open need to prepare for N'levels .SHITTY ! Which i really hate to sit inside the classroom for like hours ! CIBS .Oh god ,please bring me to the older age .So i don't need to prepare for school again ! Waduuh ~ Nevermind ,everyone needs to go through school life .Can't deny that .

Well ,been sitting at home for this four days .Maklomlah ,skola bukak besok .Aiya .Finish school at 1.30 pm tomorrow but continue with rehearsal till 5.30 pm .Wahsey .Aku senyom sajelah ~ But still i get to meet my K A K I G E R E K S ! It's only them who make my heart and soul to go to school .Klo tak janganlah harap nak tengok muke gue kat skola .TEEHEE (: It's for my own good though .So yeah ,sister will be at home tomorrow but then i came home late ,too bad .Tuesday then i accompany you okaay (:

WEEHOO ~ Friday will be the next performance day .Excited .Family is there to support .YAYAY ~ OHYAH ,my uncle is already back on the last friday .Walao .He's becoming darker and thinner .Can see whey .Rindu dier nk mampos but today dier balek his pilot camp .Friday then book out .Sasuey betol .Currently chatting with this makcik ,NinaBelo .Talking bout tomorrow stuff .WALAOWHEY ~

A K U T A K S U K E S C H O OL !

2010-06-25T15:51:00.003+08:00

Performance was great .Did enjoy ourself .So much fun .23rd June was a very fine day .Teehee (: Celebrate Ms.Noraini farewell thingy while waitinf for second performance .Feel like crying whey but tahan .HAAHHAHAH .Fiq Paman ,Habib ,Joe and Raisot were there to support us .wee ~ Lamer tao tk nampak si Fiq .We did have a lil chat .Kakak and Bro Feroz were there too .Thank you so much yaw !Ex Drumatix came to join the Farewell and help us bringing the things .So yeaah ,reachh Takashimaya at 6 + pm and start at 7+ pm .We had alot of fun .Otw there ,all of us were like so nervous but end up it was pretty fine .Everything finish at 9+ pm .If i'm not wrong .Slept Keynah's crib with Nina .And ohh no ,Monday school reopen .WTF ! We got our rehearsal for 2nd July too .Wahduuh ~

MATE AKU TEMBEL !SIAKSIAK !

Here's the photos where we people celebrating the Farewell thingy .Aiyo ,gonna miss her so much .Dearest Ms Noraini ,have a safe journey .WE LOVE YOU !

2010-06-16T18:24:00.003+08:00

It's really turning bitter .I'm just not gonna care everything now .Ape nak jadi ,jadi .WADUH ~ How long must i suffer in this way ?Enough lah ,fuck .You are such an asshole .Macam nak wakdush jer muker kau .Sedeh siak aku .You don't even care about my feelings and why should i ?Yang sudah tu sudah .Penat sekali ngan kerena kau .I planned to have a long break .I hope there's no one will get into my doors while i'm taking this break .How i wish i could get someone who always be on my side .Ya allahai ~ I won't believe in promises again and will never .Stress up .I thought everything gonna stay peace but naseb macam kentalan abu lah kan .Tak satu'satu .Sialan butos .I don't think all this will stay calm .What's the best way now ? Haish .Otak mati siak aku .I think i already know what you want and what you expect now .

Let it be .Biarlah tu sumer jadi kenangan if that's what you waiting for .Waduuh ~

Berat betol hati nak tinggalkan tapi ape nak buwat lah kan .

People will always say ,we have to leave the person that we love .

Buuuuuuuuuuut the fucking thing is ,how am i gonna move on ?I can't .

I'm totally lost when he's not always with me ~.~

Memang lah orang bace ni ,people would think that i'm so emotional .

But deeply ,you don't know what i've been keeping this days .I'm hurt ,really'really hurt .

How am i suppose to tell him with this feeling ?Dissapointed pon ade ,otak serabot pon ade ,irritated pon ade tapi i think i still holding on tight whenever i feel like letting go .Waduuh ~

See ,what situations should i live in now ?It's totally complicated .Haywire all over the place .

2010-06-14T23:59:00.003+08:00

Alright ,a random post .Staying at home the whole day .Hessh ,So boring .Wednesday going to buy batucada stuff .Pants and tee's .Like finally .Can't wait for next week .Excited but at the smae time ,seram lah jugak .Miss performing tao .COMECOME and support us !Ohh yeah ,this year Hari Raya theme will be Black'Green .Cool yaw .I choose that colour .Wee ^^ .Favourite colour lagik .Feewit !Currently chatting with Ikasiao .Ni pon tak tao nk bobal ape .HEE(: Pity her lah kan .Everyday got problems .Waduh ~ Chill babe .Hidop ni memang penuh dengan cabaran .Cheybah ,melayu baek siak aku .HAHHAHAHAHA .Siaksiak .Miss my two GEMBENGS lah !Biler mao jumper ni .HMM .Klo hari'hari jumpe ,hari'hari ley pecah perot .Oh yeaah ,shima ,sorry for not coming to Riyan's birthday party .Due to something (:

I'm trying to make my way off now .Aiyo .I have to .Everything keep coming in and out .

2010-06-14T00:38:00.002+08:00

What the heck siak kau !Put all the blames on me .What must i say now ?I'm seriously giving up .Tired of those shits that always been thrown here .Aku da malas nak layan ni sumer.Do whatever you want to .I'm out !FUCK LAH KEH !

2010-06-12T13:37:00.006+08:00

Those fight yesterday were really hitting up .Ikasiao ?HMMS .Thanks for the info .I wouldn't know all this if you don't mention out to me but at the same time you are hurting me .The says caused all the hurts .Eventhough all this has happened ,i still try to keep a room in my heart for you .I know everyone did a mistake .Everyone deserve a second chance .I acted like i'm okaay but did you see the slashing on me ?No .Leaving is not the way to settle and you didn't leave me too .I'm sorry if everything messed up .Eventhough it's not my fault .Haish .Karma .How was i not be afraid of getting hurt again ?I felt like a punching bag cos you kept punching my heart .What would i always do is to shed my tears out and i still can't believe that i still stand steadily to accept all your wrong-doings and still tried to repair the r/s .I feel bad too when i ever put all the blames on you at first but i did say sorry .Now i'm telling you ,i still haven't even give up on it .I'm trying to keep all this stronger .Nevermind ,i hope you won't repeat it again and those mouth out there ,keep your mouth shut unless it's really worth it to say .Yeaah ,Zaihin ,i know you don't ask for all this and i know you wouldn't want all this to happen .In love will always have their ups and down .So yah ,that's what called love and not giving up easily as i told you many times .Ikasiao wasn't at fault when she told me that .I know how she feels .Thanks for being there to be with me when i'm down (: iloveyou baby .Let's don't get things worse .All i wished to have the brighter side .Byebye .

2010-06-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

STRESS OUT ,FUCK MAN !

2010-06-11T22:27:00.003+08:00

Something is not right actually .Oh dear ,you acting like a stalker now .Common lah .Be natural .Why are you like so into that person ?Stop it lah .I felt so irritated by observing all your movements .Hssh ~ Membontot jer .Siak betol .Haiyo .Whatever lah kay .Kau memang takde sifat independent langsong ,tu pasal .Fuck your attitude !Pissed !

I'm missin my MuhdZaiheen .Haish ~Hopefully today he's gonna online (: Yesterday night was not in the mood to online ,so not sure if love has been online or not .I'm sorry if you kept waiting .Had a great sleep yesterday .The days which i don't get enough sleep ,at last i get my sleep back (: Sunday having Riyan's birthday party .Not sure if i'm gonna attend or not .Parent's planning for outing .HMMS ~ I don't feel good .My left eyeside keep blinking .Orang tue'tue cakap ,tu makne nye nak nanges .Betol ke ?Wakdush ! Taknak gue . Haziq sent me one song that he covered it .'Cinta Tiga Segi '.But the thing sending so slow ! Mangkok hayon (: Whole day sit at home .Help nenek with house work .Okaay lah tu .Step rajen siket .wee ~ Babyboi ,cepat lah online .I want to talk to you .I want to share some problems .Problems been overlapping everyday .I want to have some good days ,good says ,good side and good in everything i do .HMMS ~ Someone bring me to a quiet place ,please .I need a place to release something ,to laugh and to get a fresh things -.-

2010-06-10T15:22:00.004+08:00

Well ,hello people .So bored .At home alone .What theee .Others off to work and they be back afternoon .HMMM .Currently searching for shoes on the net .Wondering what shoes am i going to buy .Admire this but don't know where to get it .SHITTY !

Admire like hell .Aiyoyoyoyo .HMMM .Hopefully can find something like this ,AMIN .So yeaaah ,staying home till 21st of June then get prepare with batucada stuffs .Performance lah pulak .Rainbow bangle will passed to love soon .He wants it so much .ASSY !Hhahahah .Yesterday webby .Kecoh semcm .Sleep at 4 plus i guess .Wake up at 12 plus .Nenek keep shouting my name to wake up .ALAMAKHAI ~ Potong steam betol .Sickness is still on .Go away ler .I want to enjoy my holidays not having this sickness everyday .WOOSH .Nose block and coughing like old woman .Aiya ,so bored stay at home till 21st .Nak lepaking jugak but tao lah mulot mama,baba tak sah klo tak nag .Adoii ~Senyom sajelah .Anw ,touched with what his mum said about me .Flying to the moon ~ Tengah webby skali mak dier pulak tengok .Scary gue .As in shock way .And before ending got a lil bit quarreling .SODEH ~.~

2010-06-09T23:26:00.002+08:00

Today practice was fine .We almost done with the new song .Left two more days to practice and that's all ,it's performance .WAHSEY AH .Afoche reedom was super nice .Brazillion .ULALA~After everything ,Budi send us till shell situ by Wicked Aura van .Seronok sekali tapikn ,i saw there's this one sign inside his vehicle.I ask budi and he say 'No lah ,it's my friend paste it.'Like duh ! Hahhaaha .What theee lah dektu .Hmm ,performance coming .Sorry if i left this blog dead .I'll be back when i'm already done with those two performance .Many things to buy and get prepared for everything .Next Saturday meeting Gembengs to find something .The Sunday going out with family to celebrate Father's day and also buying my DC SHOES !WOOO ~ I loike !Buying my batucada stuff .Excited tao kejap .HEEE(: Just now when home with mama .Best tao .Talk about stuffy things .Reach home ,do house chore ,play lappy and watch The back-up plan .Got the sadness jugak .Where's love ?Lambat nah online .Selalu mcm ginik .waduuh ~ So bored .Currently confo with gembengs and kym .Nothing to do lah kan .Feel like sleeping but neh ,cannot sleep .Still fresh .Budak mokssy !Online lah now .To someone ,just go on with what you have now .Why are you relying on others if you own one .Haish .Tak phm lah aku ngan kau .Take it easy babe .Wait till the karma comes to you .I'm not hoping lah but please believe in karma .It's already proven with every single thing .One by one came to say sorry .Nothing to sorry about .Everyone knows her now ,so yeaah ,just back-off as i told you guys before .Speechless .Whatever it is ,i'm happy for you .Praying for the good ones (:

Hopefully the says were really sincere .It will never ends if it's true .No ones know how deep will it be .Gonna be through well if everyhting were smooth ~Kau msok lagik suar .Aku sebat sia kau .

2010-06-08T23:17:00.003+08:00

OHMY ,OHMY !I miss blogging so much .Sorry for not updating this bloggie .Been busy with stuffs .Three days of practices in one week .So the penat but what to do ,ENDURE !Performance left how many days and we are lack of practices .Yeaah ,kene rajin but yesterday didn't turn up ,due to sickness .Waduuh ~ kalau balek torn mesti saket .SUEK BETOL .Anw the nights with kawan'kawan was great .Laugh like one crazy dongkey .Musem ler .12 people turn up .Joe paitao .HAISH ~ Play games and stuffs .Alot of fun .Pictures all over but some the face macam barang baek gituu .Kekek lah kan .Firstly ,meet Nina ,Keynah ,Hakym and Kiki at BoonLay busstop .Take 99 straight to Clementi Interchange .Had breakfast at Ananas Cafe .The chicken rice was awesome yaw and it's only $1.80 .Tak ke murah tu .After had that food, smokey while waiting for Shima and Misaki .Promise at 3.30 but nearly 4 they came .Waduhh ~Macam bossy lah pulak .HAHAHAHHA .Meet them and proceed to ECP by taking 196 .Becinte dudok kat dalam bus tu .1 hour plus !FOOK !PENAT SEKALI .Inside bus keep disturbing Hakym when he's sleeping .KEKEK DE .Reaching ,and he's fully awake .Drop at this busstop ,saw Ryan and Kak Lina .Help them to carry their stuff and book a place .Booked ,slack and laughing thang .The toilet was like fucking far .15 mins walking to pee .Siaksiak .Nak toilet pon spot jauh'jauh .Senyom sajelah .Fiq ,Sarath and Syamu came late .Joe tak nampak bayang langsong .Dissapointed rabak with him .hmm .So slack till morning .Make a move at 2 pm .Walk and take 196 .Everyone fall asleep in the bus .So the nice but the aircon spoil !Rosak lah pulak .Kiki ,kau sumpah kekek .Macam orang kene ape siak .Naseb baek aku tak mati tekejot .Dari tengah ngantok ,teros fresh .Kekek pehr pasal .HAHAHAHHA .Proceed to Clementi and had our breakfast there .After eating ,off home .That's all about the torning .Practices was okay ,just that i'm not feeling well this days .Saket lah kan .FLU ,COUGH ,BERAK'BERAK and slight fever .So no mood to hit snare .Lembek semacam .Hopefully ,i'll recover soon ,amin .Tak boley tahan whey .Tommorow batucada again ,woossh ~Penat sekali .Okayokay ,update bloggie again some other time .Waiting for love to online .Dongkey betol lah dektu .ADOOI .

2010-06-04T00:29:00.002+08:00

Webby with this Honeyb .Pengecot smcm siak .HAHAHAHHA .Crazy Dongkey (:

Anw , i miss blogging ,SUMPAH siols .Update next time okaay .Busy banget .

2010-05-31T21:04:00.002+08:00

Ohmy ,so bored .Currently chatting with two GEMBENGS regarding tomorrow stuff.Hell yeaah !They maybe sleeping my house on friday .Harap'harap jadi ah .HMM .Telungkop plan .Takpe lah .Nak kene paham situations jugak .There's always be the next time kan .Ni sumer musem ah .HAHAHAHA .Tomorrow lepaking with batucada members .Kym wait jer ,1 hour plus is very fast .Not to worry yaws !Waiting for mama to bring food .Morning eat maggi mee and till now haven't eat .Sedeh i .Waduuh ~ Hearing to 'ADA CINTA' repeatedly .Tangkap feeling siket .Macam nk meleleh pon ade .HAHAHAHAHA .CRAP !Now confo talk with Nina ,Keynah and Kym .Kecoh lah .Nak beli roks punyer pasal pon nk kecoh .HAHAHAHA .Kakak gangster takot nak beli roks .HAHAHHAHA .Ape punyer orang .CHALOS (:

2010-05-31T14:46:00.002+08:00

A boring day comes with a sadness day .He already went back .Siak betol .Anw ,i had so much fun talking with that two siblings .Feroz and Faizal .It's fun to hear their stories (: First time of talking with Faizal and we already can get along .AWESOME !HAHAHHAHA .Freaking fun but the bored part is we stay at home and doing nothing.Just slack .The Keduri on Saturday was fine but there's some problems between me and that ***** .Whatever lah kay .You can say whatever you want cause i don't give a shit !You're old and of course your mind are still in the old version .Your words really make me down and pissed off .How big my mistakes is ,you don't have to said untill it hurts me alot .Pape lah ey .You showing me your attitude ,so i'm not gonna say anything .Perangai kau sumpah macam kanak'kanak ,nek .Cut it off .So yeah ,tomorrow be going to structured class and Batucada thingy .Not sure of sleeping to nina's crib -.- cause of something .Alahai ~Alone again at home .So bored .What to do ?Ohyes ,guest ,You don't think i don't know who are you okaay ?Mind your fucking words cause i'm gonna get you one day and smack your cb face.I swear ,i'm gonna do it !Bring up to msn and talk to me kay ass .Kirekan kau bawak sampai blog aku ,kau power ah ? GO TO HELL !Aku tak goyang .STUPID MOTHER FUCK .I know you can't accept that you are a WOMANIZER !BODOH !

2010-05-28T23:19:00.004+08:00

So yeaah , blogging again (: Nothing to do .Everyone is already asleep .I'm alone -.- The others haven't back yet .Mcm @#!$%^&*(~ gtuu ey drg .Takpe ,ateen senyom jelah .Currently chatting with NinaJAH ,KymOSMAN , RaisotSTONECOLD , Haziq ,Ameerul [MeyMey] ,FIQTAKASE .Talking rubbish thing .Mamahigh lah ,Sugardaddy lah ,Button lah .Tak mengerti sik eka !HHAHAHA .From just now keep downloading songs .Fucking lots .Takpe lah ,ni nk buwat dengar sampi mampos .Chey , no lah .CRAP !Freaking bored man and yeah ,i'm wondering how could they know ey ?Heran ateen jap .Takpe lah .One day pon drg will know kan .HAHAHA .Where is everyone ?Why are they not at home yet .HMM .Yeaah ,later sister will be back with Feroz and also Faizal .At least got someone to talk to .To joke with (: Nak tao something ? I'm tired of ni bende .Binget lah kan banyak sangat question .Whatever lah .Ateen pon speechless about this ,really speechless .Let the pass be the pass .Takmo ungket .Ateen pon taknak ingat'ingat kan lagi .Biarlah bende menjadi sendirik .YA ALLAH ,TABAHKAN LAH HATI KU INI ,AMIN .Harus banyak berdoa lah kan .HMM ~ Ape nak jadi ni ateen ?I always have this terrible feelings and i really hate it .FUCK IT LAH !Ignore it .So yeaah ,now is 12.51 am .Everyone having their LALA LAND now -.- Boring tao gue ,SUMPAH !Talking to ameerul about Batucada instruments .Macam'macam lagik .I love my SNAREDRUMMM !Legend lah kan .Cannot wait for upcoming performance .This coming tuesday having all day camp and rehearsal at Yuhua CC .The practices on June holis is for the 23rd June and 2nd July .YAHOOOO ~1st June have to attend structured class .Jumpe lah si Mrs.Ng .Siak btol .Luckly there's no PTM for me *WIDE SMILE* .If not ,confirm many things complain to mama .Ateen memang da biase .SHITTY ! My neck hurts .FOOK !Stiff siak .Alright ,i'm logging off .Time check ; 1.45 am .Selamat Malam Awak (:

2010-05-28T18:02:00.002+08:00

Helping mama doing the Pudding and also Jelly Fruit for tomorrow Kenduri's .Cuppucino Pudding and Strawberry Pudding .Hell yeah !SEDAPLICIOUS !This kenduri is specially for Busu .He's going to Perak for his Pilot Course .Semoge selamat sepanjang Course tuu .WEEE ~ I love you ,Busu .So yeaaah ,now sending Meerul Wicked Aura songs .Desperate of Wicked Aura lah kan .Tapi memang agree ,they are so professional .HAHAHAHAH .Sit home with mama the whole day (: Tomorrow will be a busy day .Maybe not be online .HEHEHE .I miss PAPARAZZI so much ): Kakak be home tomorrow with Mr.Feroz .

2010-05-27T20:12:00.003+08:00

Why do people always good at acting ?Yes ,we have to accept the facts .I don't mind kay Khid .Seriously .You're not my boyfriend or whatsoever ,so what should i care for .Up to you to do whatever you want .No one can judge your life and i really hate where people passing informations around and keep asking me about all this .What for you forward that message to Fafa if you wants to help us ?As QynQyn says ,you're not that kind but QynQyn ,let me tell you this ,don't judge a book by it's cover .We'll see what's gonna turns out one day .Everyone needs to cover their own line but what for if you're making things to worse.What for ? Enough lah ,drop your act .Stop contacting me okaay ?Can you .Ape yg da lepas ,lepaskan .You go your own way and i'll go my way .And Fafa ,of course i forgive you .We know each other so long ,so for what nk gadoh psl bende baru .Go on with life is better than having stopping time .Every steps is counted .

2010-05-27T02:48:00.003+08:00

CHAKBAH !I'm still awake .I don't know why can't i sleep -.- It's always gonna be like this when there's no school on the next day .Funny SOM .Babygirls ,wake up and entertain me .They must be already at AFRICA now .AHAH ,i guess i won't be thinking too much now .Let things go with the flow .I'm following this steps till it ends .Ladies ,i'm sorry if there's always things will relying on you both .The advices will be stored kay dear (: So now currently blog hopping to people's blog .AKU BORING !SUMPAH !Mcm kepale dongkey gtuu. What to do .Oh yah ,before i forget .I never thought true friends pon mcm siak !What more you want ey ?After ni ,sape lagik ?Enough is enough lah lady .Are you done with your customer ?FUCK TO THE ROCK ! I got the feeling to hate you now cause i think you're too much babe .I'm gonna ignore you if situation stays this way all the time .I'm freaking tired of listening those nonsense from you .My patience will always have the limits .You know what ,i feel like smacking you till i'm satisfied .Can i ?You'll realise when things getting apart from you .Trust me babe ,all that gonna left you behind but on that upon of time you'll search for someoned whom always get deeply hurt and you are the cause of this hurt .I've tried to understand you when every single thing you do but if i rewind it back ,it's totally not worth it cause you're always there to talk and judge people's life but your own personal things ,you don't bother to know or even work up for your own good .What you want is FLIRT LIKE A MOTHERFUCKER !I'm sorry to say this but you make me say it .STOP ACTING LIKE A BITCH !Alright ,i shall cut it off now .Get your dirty way off my site .HEE :D Time check ; 3.56 am .Mater oh mater ,kenape kau tak tutop .Currently chatting with Dee .Kate nak tido bey online balek .Gendengs semacam .HAHAHAHAH .NinaJAH and KeynahODAH ,i'm going to miss you both like fucking hell cause we'll meet again on Tuesday !LAMER SIOLS !

2010-05-26T22:41:00.002+08:00

FIRST CAT TO TAKECARE OF AND FIRST CAT TO LEAVES US ):

Firstly i want to say ,i'm gonna miss you so much ,BLACKIE .This picture was taken when she's already gone .I thought i was dreaming when hearing this news but though it's true .She's dead because of her high fever .Why did you leave us this early ?Haish .Has been takecare of her since i was K2 and it's like 10 years we've been together in one roof .We are already like siblings and i treat her more than that -.- I'm sorry for not visiting you when you're sick .I'm so sorry .The last time i saw you was last Tuesday .I never known all this will happen .Heard the story where grandma tell us how she had her last breath .I was like really down and my tears were keep rolling down my cheeks at that moment .I get to see her when she's already dead .Her body were all stiff when i tried to touch her .I'm really sorry for not being there when you are so sick .We did dig the ground and make a grave for her .While busu digging the ground ,his tears were all falling down cause he's the closes one with Busu and i just can't stop crying too .God loves her more .Left Browny and Boncet now .I hope you both will stay with us much more longer .Blackie ,i love you and missin you so much .Watch me when you're up there ):

I just now didn't attend to school but attend for Batucada .Had a great time .My first finger skin were peeled off because of the drumstick ! Maklom lah ,da lamer tk pegang tu bende .HEEE :D We get to hear the new beat where we going to learn for 23rd June performance .So nice .A brazillion beat .WOOO ~ LOVE IT .So Tuesday will be having all day camp at the Yuhua CC and also rehersal there .2nd July will be the performance at Yuhua CC .So many of invitations (: I LIKE ! PEOPLE ,COME AND SUPPORT US !After the all day camp ,planned to sleepover Nina's crib .YAY !Gonna have alots of fun .Hoping KeynahOdah joined us .On the 2nd ,3rd and 4th June ,is their turn to sleepover my house (: 5th JUNE ,OMG ! ENJOY ~ Anw my results were really sucks to the core ! essssh ~

2010-05-23T20:52:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps (: So yeaaah ,stay at home the whole day .Sleep at 4 am ,wake up at 9+ am and sleep back at 11 + am .Sleep ,sleep till 5 pm .Fuuhlemak !So nice .Do house chore and cook maggie while Mama otw home bring food .So bored you know sit at home.hmmms ~ Mama bring lots of food .Full to death !PUAS HATI ! Currently chatting with OHHH NINA KARINA ~ Nothing to talk about .Chat'chat biase jer .Yay ! Tomorrow Batucada after school ! I'm so gonna hit my snare loudly and now i already smells the band room ~ In the morning got some practice for Tuesday make up test .FUNNN ! I'm so fresh now .How am i going to shut my eyes for tomorrow school ?WTH .Haven't pack my school bag .Bawak barang alakadah jer .Just now chat sameh Haziq classmate .Crazy siak tu anak .HAHAHHA .Agree with what he said .Chat bobal rancak ,kat skola ,MATI !Mcm kene sumbat ngan sendok .HAHAHAHAHAH ~ Slalu Ateen yg tegor dier tao .Waduuh ~I watch one of this video which my brother record it when his friend birthday party .It was so sweet where one of this couple ,her boyfriend gave her a rose .OHMY !SO SWEEEEET !Meleleh aku jap .How i wish that was me -__- HAHAHAHA ~ Berangan mau lebeh (:

2010-05-22T23:33:00.004+08:00

I SWEAR ,I MISS YOU GUYS !

I miss hitting my snare ):

I miss Budi shouting at us

I miss performing

I MISS DRUMATIX BATUCADA

MONDAY ~ COMECOMECOME !

2010-05-22T19:18:00.004+08:00

WADUUUUUUUUUH ~So bored .No one at home .I'm alone .Macam cibs .Everyone will be home at night .Grandparents just went home .Tomorrow family be going to Kampong .Something to dicuss .We siblings stay at home .Aku senyum jelah ~Tomorrow sister coming back !YAAAY !At least i got someone to talk to when she's at home .Monday will be going to school ,i guess .WAKAKAKAKA .What should i do now ?Freaking mendaaaaak !Gembengs go lepak !AKUUUUUU NK IKOOOOOT ): Tapi bangon lmbt .Alahai ~ I keep listening to the Kompang remix with the Batucada .It's more than 10 times i hear to that thing .SEDAAAP NK MAMPOS .AKU SUKER !Kawan ,mari lah bobal ngn Ateen .Boring oi .Tadi meerul nak ajak webby then dier offline pulak .Bontot baskot btol .HEHEHEHHEE .Maybe i'm too slow to restart my computer .Maaf yer bonch .Night is still there (: I'm waiting for my family to come home .FASTEER !I'm bored cos i'm alone .Paparazzi did call me just now but because of Fiq & Syamu at his crib ,we hang up .Nevermind .Then when he's online ,tak bobal ngn ateen .Bobal pon kejap -__- ASSY ! I understand lah kan .Tetamu harus dilayan .What am i going to do now ? Just finished webby with FAFA .Dier pon tgh boring .ADOII ~Stomach cramp ! Is that bestfriend coming ?Ohmy !NO ! I hate it .RIMAS SEKALI ~ Alright till here (: Wanna watch tv .

2010-05-22T15:21:00.003+08:00

Webcam with this budak BONCH semalam ,at 12 or 1 + am i guess ! Crazy lah whey .He send me one song which Kompang remix with Batucada .Sedap oi .Live sound .HEHEHEHE .but gerek .Take pictures ,laugh and somethinnnng .He admire with that Wicked Aura .Asking me how to join the batucada band .hahahahha. AMEERUUUUUUUUUUL !ATEEN ADE PRACTICE TAO NEXT WEEK !He will say *Rolling eyes* 'Jealous sey' .Cepat ,cepat carik and join okaaay !Yes ,things getting cold now .Alhamdulilah .No more gado'gado .Aku da malas ,SUMPAH !but now we talk like how we used to .Sorry today cannot meet you ,busy .WIDE SMILE .

2010-05-21T22:01:00.004+08:00

Today was so boring but in school ,I LIKE !NinaJAH be my model .I make up for her .Fun tao .There's no mistake Miss Marryaan says but just if NinaJAH can put that lipstick on her ,it will look so much better .Nah ,lip gloss will do .It suits her too .Canteeeeeeeeeeeeeek sekali selepas make up .She look so different with make up .HAHAHAHAHA ~ The blending was nice (: Tuesday will be the test .Hopefully pass yer .AKU SUKER !

Finally Monday there's batucada !Ohmy ,i miss drumming my snare and i miss instructor Budi too (: It will be a blast !YAAAAY ! We are preparing for the next performance which on June and will be held at TAKASHIMAYA ! Come ,watch and support us yaw (: Will be busy for this few days with school and also for batucada .Sorry if blog is dead for a moment later on .The practice starts with a three times per week .WOOW ~ It feels like TRAAAALALA ~

Currently chatting with Raisot .Nothing to do .So bored .Oh yes ,i'm still counting to 5th June .I miss you dol !Wahsey ah ~ I had so much fun slacking with two gembengs and also KikiSO'OD .Awesome ! Laugh all the way .Yeaah ,i get that blast volume again and i'm happy .HEHEHHE .KeynahODAH ,pasal kat tangge tu diam'diam whey .Takmo spread .Malu AteenSOM nanti .WEEEE ~ OOHYEAH ,i want to have tuitions .I really want it .After holidays no more funky stuff .N-LEVEL COMING DOK ! Eyes on books okaay (: Gembengs !We can do it tao .woohoo ~Nak tao something ,i and Mama i jer yg awake .Macam sweet pulak .Slalu da kadam dulu .heheheh ~I LOVE YOU INTAN !Mama Ateen tuu (: Alright ,no more to elaborate .I'm done with blogging .Selamat Malam Awak (:

2010-05-20T14:32:00.003+08:00

Didn't attend school today due to this sickness .Still having a terrible headache .Ohmy , missed those practical make up lesson -__- FOOK !Gembengs ,sorry for not letting you know that i'm absent today .Tak sadar tadi pagi .Nenek is sick too .Musem ah .Nenek ,recover soon kay (: Hmph .What's now ?I'm speechless . Nothing to say .Errm ,so bored .No one at home .Waduuh ~ Did house chore today .Maybe tomorrow meeting kakak somewhere .I guess so .hmm .Webcam,webcam !Webcam with one of my friend .Fun lah kan .Kecoh btol.Wth .I feel like vomitting again after eating .Haiyo !Sickness ,go away .I don't feel good ~ and you ,i'll take your words .I'm not joking .Say whatever you want to .Your mouth ,no one can shut it .Adoii ~ Feel really weak .Wahsey ah .I'm taking a nap .Be back at night (:

2010-05-19T18:57:00.002+08:00

Why do this body feel very weak ?I keep vomitting & get those dizziness since morning .Tak larat nak jalan balek tadi -__- Ohmy .I feel really sick now .Isit because i'm lack of rest ?I think i have that rest but not really rest .I feel like fainting when i'm on my way back home just now .My head was hit like a DING-DONG .Tak boley tahan .I vomit when i just reach infront of my house gate .Tak sempat nak masok ,da terkluar sumer .Hmph .What's wrong ah ?Waduuh ~

School was fine .We got this MAKE UP course !Really fun .Miss Maryaan teach us how to take care of our beauty & tomorrow will be the practical .YAAAAAY !I'M LOVIN IT !

2010-05-17T17:56:00.002+08:00

OHMYGOD !I miss you girls fucking lots !WOOO ~So sweet lah korang .Called me & shouted 'ATEEEEEEN !I MISS YOU !' .Feel like crying .WOOOOSH !Yeaaah ,i miss you girls more !Don't cry lah HoneyB (: Do drop by my house wheeeey .Hell yeaaah !We'll get that much time together one day .Not to worry .Wednesday maybe i'll be coming to school kay dear .Paparazzi miss me ,i miss you too (: HoneyB !Klo besok come my house ,I cook for you as what i promise you .Nina Karina Bte Hamdan ,you endure with the spicyyy .HEHEHEHEHEHE .Satu air laut you gonna drink up .WEEE ~ When am i going to meet them ?Freaking miss like hell .Hearing their voice making me like sheding a tears .Gosssh ! You girls always make my day :D I LOVE YOUUUU !
Thank god that i got someone to be with ,it's you girls (:

2010-05-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

I don't know why i feel really down now .What's the reason ?Why am i feeling this down .Lots of things has been coming around .God ,calm me down .I need someone to talk with .Why am i always crying ?Every now & then .I need you as you know .It hurts me alot when you told me that you're tired of telling me to stop it .Yes ,i might always had those jokes but i won't show that sadness as real .It really broke me into a million pieces when you told me that .I was totally lost & get down like a freak .I don't know why am i always feel this way .Many things has been bothering me all time .Why isit ?It's not only with you that makes me think in different way ,ALOTS of things .I don't need much from you just that thingy when i keep repeatly says it .I was actually trying to figure out what has been bothering me .What else should i do ,what must i say now ?Everything has proven it to me .All night i will feel this again & again .I'll be lying down to try how to get things settle as it ever goes .Promises should be keep it tight to yourself .I don't know if you gonna forget it again .I'm out of words .I'm frustrated ,dissapointed & it's really hurts me with this .I need a shoulder to cry on .I need a listener to listen my problems out .I need my god to calm me down .*I'm in tears*

I'm missin you

Who am i gonna text or talk with at nigths

No more calls ,no more hearing your laughs now

I'm hoping the very best .

Sometimes when one person is missing ,the whole world seems depopulated .The reason it hurts so much to seperate is because our souls are connected .

2010-05-16T14:23:00.002+08:00

Selamat Tengahari Sumue (:
Yeaah ,i'm just awake .Sleep at 5 in the morning .Really tired .Mama keep yelling 'adek,bangon lah mkn' .HAHAHA .Waduuh ~ That's why i'm awake .I thought of getting more rest but nevermind .So yeaaah ,the june outing will be on the 5th June .Hoping everyone will tag along .HEHEHEH .NinaLove ask me to go to school tomorrow tapi kn na ,tengoklah pade keadaan .Buut i miss them -.- Tak tao nk jadi ape ngn aku ni .Today staying at home with mama .Not going out .Busu did ask if we wants to follow him but mama say lazy .It's better to sit at home .Don't know what to do now .So boreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed .Keep downloading songs ajer .I miss hanging out with friends ,hang out with two love & paparazzi too .Some people says that holiday will be on the 21st & some says on the 27th .Which one ?Alahai .Hmmm .29th May having Busu's kenduri for his Pilot Course at Perak .Hopefully he will be safe there (: I'm goona miss him man .like seriously !Husssh .Why is this Zaihin haven't online till now ? -.- Tidor lah tu .I'm searching for new blogskins but there's none of them suits my eyes .Sume mcm kecoh'kecoh .What theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .Currently watching DO RE MI .Klakar rabak .Bomoh maen gendang'gendang ey .hahahahhaa .I'm sleepy .I want to continue my sleep .Tahtah .

2010-05-16T04:30:00.002+08:00

Time check ; it's already 4.32 am .I'm still awake ,yay ! Can't sleep lah kan .So computer jelah dari tadi .Hee :D Anw augustino ,thanks for visiting my blog yer .Do come again (: Appreciate lah sngtsngt .So yeaaah ,i thought of sleeping tadi but tgk ade bende kat tagboard ,dusssh ,mari aku datang nk post .Klo nk ckp pon letak lah kat tagboard aku .Takyah dirty kn tagboard FafababyKiora yer .Ape cerite kn bobal kat situ ?HAHAHAHAH .Kau ni mmg ley jadi bahan ketawe aku .Hell yeaaah .Jumpe lagik !

2010-05-15T00:54:00.003+08:00

TEEHEEEE !Here's the boy .MuhdZaihin Bin -his father- .The person who always be my listener .Great yaw .I never found a boy like this .Although we always use the harsh word but still we don't take things serious .A boy who have his happiness all time .He won't easily get down .He's a cheerful boy .What he will always do is to walk towards the brighter site eventhough if he's not in the mood .He will keep his secret as deep as he could .I will always have this smile on my face when we have the talks & laughs .I swear ,i'm happy to have him now .I don't know that we've gone till this far .I wish that the situations will stays & will never go away .I'll cry my lungs out man !I'm lucky to know him ,seriously .Wahsey ah !I love you kwan (:

Friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable .A true friends unbossoms freely ,advises justly ,assists readily ,adventures boldly ,takes all patiently ,defents courageously and continues a friend unchangeably.

The Greatest Boy Ever

2010-05-14T15:43:00.002+08:00

Stupid FUCKER !

Orang da tknk bobal ngn kau ,diam'diam ah .Sialan pehr prangai .Otak mati siak .Crazy woman ?Aku ke kau ?Kau irritating fucker ah .Amcm ?Okayy ?Annoying ah kau ,SUMPAH SIAK !Hidop tak sah klo tk kacau orang .Kau buwat hal kau ,aku buwat hal aku ah .Susah hati sangat ape crite ?! Stop bothering me lah ass ! Da dapat dier ,nak aper lagik ? Mintak kene fuck pe ?! Kau susah pasal aku tk bobal ngn kau kan. Sampi mampos pon aku tkkn nk gi terhegeh'hegeh ngn muker kau ! Bodoh nk mampos ! Kau nk aku stop ngan ni bende ,you better stop with your fucking attitude !Kau pehr prangai tak perlu !

2010-05-12T22:28:00.004+08:00

Yeaaaah !I'm back people .Sorry for not updating my blog .Being busy with mid year exams .Yes ,had a great moment .The few paper was totally okaay .I have no problem with it .Anw mama is sick ): Recover please mama .I love you !Did went home straight for the Monday & Tuesday as mama was sick at home but today did spent time with two love & dearest beloved friends .Fucking awesome .Ryan ,you watch out yaw .I'm gonna KILL YOU !hahahaha .Stupid budaak .

To my dearest buddy ,Martino .

I'm sorry for not joining the party due to something

Happy Birthday to you,

Happy Birthday to you ,

Happy Birthday to Martinooooooooo !

Happy Birthday to you ~

Yay !I've sing a song for you (: Brother ,Happy 17th Birthday in advance .Hope your wishes come true .Yes ,we people have being friends since sec 1 & i hope not to end the friendship yaw because you're a great guy friend .A belo friend of mine (: Sayang kau lah BROTHER ! YOU ROOCCCK OI ! \m/ .Nanti aku bawak kan kepale lembu untok celebrate kat school ey .Hee :D

Zaihin oi ,mane kau !Rindu sameh kau .Waduuh ~ Payaah .Sedeh aku .HAHAHA .But he's a good guy ,seriously .Know how to respect a named of lady .Greaat lah kan dekni .How i wish you get a lady which have the same attitude .A listener to me .He would always be there to hear out my problems ,he were there to calm me down with every each of his advice .He's super great !

2010-05-09T13:24:00.003+08:00

WOO ~Happy Mother's Day !I LOVE MY MAMA .Eventhough i always make you down ,i still love you ,eventhough sometimes i might be harsh & rude to you ,i still love you .The 16 years being together with you is the bigest thing to appreciate & my mama is greatest mother .Your arms were always open when i needed a hug .Your heart understood me when i needed a friend .Your gentle eyes were stern when i needed a lesson .Your strength and love has guided me and gave me a wings to fly ,I LOVE YOU ,MAMA !

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THE MUMMIES (:

2010-05-08T18:17:00.002+08:00

Ohmy ,i'm having this fever again .What the hell .I don't want to have all this sickness .Headache is killing me .I hate of lying down on the bed all day .Fever ohhh fever ,go away & never come back .It really makes me feel weak like baboon !And you ass ,stop bothering me lah .What's your problem ?We got nothing to do now ,so bring your butts and FUCCCK OFF !Irritating people .You don't have to make me feel jealous by doing all that on your tagged because i don't get that jealousy in your ways .Stupid idiotic kid will only get to grab that attention .Hell yeaaah ,you are .I'm waiting for the next week .Let the feeling put you up to the sky and then you'll feel how i always do .Chibye !Waste of my fucking time to blog about this .You'll get to know who that real person that you've been trusted at .I don't care dude .Memang orang ni ade macam'macam jenis .

Yes ,that greatest boy will always be there to give the advice .He agreed that she's a kind of flirting ass & also bitching around to sleep with guys .I might be very nice to you dear but not when you stepping over my head .I'll stop the game when you stop those rubbish with me .Get it ?So don't put the blame on me when things get difficult to you .You start it ,i'll end it . HAHAHAHHA .I'm getting fun with this game although it hurts me alot .This heart will turn into stone because of those overboarding .You has been giving me a hard time for the past freaking days .We've been figthing all day looooooooooong !I'm letting you to feel the same way too MOTHERFUCKER (:

2010-05-08T16:14:00.000+08:00

It's really awesome (:

2010-05-07T22:54:00.003+08:00

Alright ,hope things will stop here .The meet up were really not worth it .What is in your mind ?Can't you see what is containing now .Nothing can i elaborate about .The talks has ended & also everything has their full stop .Seriously ,you make me broke down to believe all this .It's fucking awesome .Get the facts right dude .I won't be coming back to what has actually happened lately .Let it be .As for next week about what fafa told me ,i hope you'll get nothing or even won't get hurt .I'm freaking worried .Why is this worried coming over & over again ?Yah ,i get nothing if it keep reminding of you .Let god judge you .Only god will have the exit door for this .I'm sorry if all this while i make things complicated or whatever isit but still everything will stop here .I'll make sure that we don't have any related again .It's okay if you think the bottles will make you calm down .I was really out of anger .No more words were stopping me with this shake on .Fafa ,sorry for the pointing fingers .OHMY ~ WHAT IS HAPPENING TO THE WORLD ! I don't mind if you both is still up there ,i swear ,i don't mind . (:

And yes ,i got my two babygirls accompany me to Bedok .Well ,it real sucks for being there .Nothing has been working out .So what's the point lah kan .Accepting facts is really hard but have to .Yeaaah ,my ass hurt .The journey was damn long .It takes like 1 hour plus ,nearly 2 .What the hell & end up i get those fuck up stuff but at least i have my two love with me (: The cries were actually suck my tears back to normal because they were there to have all my happy sides .Thanks yaw gembengs ! I'm falling deeply in love with you two gembengs :D You make my day ,you make my laugh ,you make me smile whenever we girls meet up .Hee .Get the words now .The advices will be stored in my brain memory card yer GEMS .& yay ,i'm getting stronger now .I'll keep my heart & soul to stand straighter although it feels like falling down again .
People with a very bad attitude problems ,will never get settled down .

I don't give a fuck anymore ! (:

2010-05-06T22:02:00.006+08:00

Here the mereps pictures .hahaha .Snapping while they are talking to me .Thanks yaw krg (: Joe ,i'm sorry for not entertain you just now .Paham'paham lah kan .No mood .So ,was slacking to nina's crin again .Nina ,Keynah ,Shima ,Sot & also Joe .Had a great laughter ngan ni anak'anak (:

2010-05-05T16:19:00.004+08:00

I feel free now .No more involvement & i hope no one will bother me even you .I'm tired of seeing those act that you people are putting at .Get your life out of me .I'm praying hard for you so that you will always be at the safe situation. All i wish is to have a greatest life .I'm fine if you both are getting on it.I'm gonna love it .Let the best person to love you .YAAAY !I'll be waiting here .Make it clear of all this .It's your choice now .I've got nothing to say & you own your world . CHALOBETEH !

2010-05-05T14:11:00.002+08:00

Morning love .Having a refreshing day .Get a nice sleep.Wake up at 11+ am .Awake ,do the house chore ,eat & on my computer .Waiting for sister to come home .Punyer lambat .Naek bus ke merangkak.Tsktsk .Ahh ,yeaaaah , six days straight sit at home doing nothing .Wahsey ah .Tomorrow having my maths paper ,FUCK MAN !No hope .Will be slacking over to nina's crib i guess .Need to talk to joe about something .Tomorrow then .HMMM .Yeaaah ,yesterday conversation make things fuck up .Gi mati lah kan .If you think you're right or wrong ,it's better to talk to me personally .Kau tkyah tarek sape'saper & tunjok kau nye kesian .Mintak simpati pe ?Ass lah kau .I'm giving up soon .I don't care if you people making things worse.Who cares kn.Up to you lah nk kwan ngn sape .I won't stop you for nothing .You know yourself ,so pandai'pandai .Aku malas nk gado psl satu bodek .And stop complaining kay !My blog & my say .

2010-05-04T16:34:00.002+08:00

What's going on to the world ?

Why is everyone making things difficult.

I hate you.Understand me ,can you ?

I hope there's no tomorrow.I'm fucking stress.

Nothing will make me stay peace.

Now & then problems keep over lapping.

I'm tired of living with this situation .All i need is a peacefully life .

2010-05-04T00:58:00.003+08:00

Adoii ~ Something get me frustrated.I swear ,i'm regretting of knowing you.Seriously & to you my dear girl ,thanks for the grabbing.Ass you.I don't know why when the person i love too much ,surely there's someone be the third parties & i don't believe that you're such an asshole to the mother fuck.How can you do this to me ?We've known each other more than a friends & end up you try to destroy just because of that freak.Are you serious with this ?Love is no where sayang unless you got the right person.Dude,i'm accepting the facts.Nothing will make me denied or make things change.I'm fucking speechless.JOEEEE !Online !I need your advice ): I'm in tears.Problem by problem making me pissed off.Why am i always losing tears when something shaking me on? Why ? I'm always try to get myself up but i can't, there's too much of love crowd surrounds me.I believe in everything i do but i'm not sure of what & when that thing going to happen.AAAAAHHH SHIT !I feel like crying my lungs out.If i'm not serious with what i always meant ,i would just leave the rubbish to you & get my buts off but no ,i don't cos i believe that god knows how much i love you .Waduuhh ,i'm getting this headache back .Too stress !Oh allah ,help me .Let me out of this game .What i need is you ,only you .Yes ,i'm jealous of everything & i'm getting the patience over the limits.I get really irritated that makes me turn into very mad situation at that point of time.My words were just shooten out without any thinking .I'm too fed up to control all this by keeping tight in my heart & i know i shouldn't keep it too long till it smells rotten .It finally burst out in a quick minute.Burok'burok aku ,aku tk amek kawan kau as part timer aku kay.I'm really get the hottest tempreture up my body.I can't take it .My face were all wet .Full of my tears & my eyes were swollen .I'm tired of rolling on the bed to let the tears out.Bestf ,i'm lighting for you the green light & i wish you will happy the entire of your life for hurting your own friend.Thank you dear .

2010-05-02T01:17:00.002+08:00

Yes ,i'm totally relieve now .Seriously .I'm in tears when you say sorry this & that .I know you don't expect things to happen but that wasn't your fault 100%. Everyone did mistake .It's nothing will be perfect in this world .I was really shock when you said that .I thought i was dreaming but i wasn't .Everything is happening in reality .There's no need for you to get things seriously .I know how you feel & i'm happy that you realise then say sorry to admit your mistakes ,though it's in a fine place now .I wish all those past will not be repeated again .Pray hard to god because i'm weak to face all this situation .I easily get down & start to cry if this keep going on .My heart and soul is not strong enough to get everything up .No matter what ,it's settled already .Thank god .At last i don't have to spend my time of crying tonight (: Biase lah ,da gembeng kn sekarang .The note make something work up & i appreciate of having this kind of mind set .Oh yes ,i've been listening to song titled 'Whataya want from me ' repeatedly .I love that song & also the lyrics .The lyrics has a good meaning .heee :D Alright ,i'm still awake now .Can't sleep but my eyes are seriously heavy .Feel like sleeping but can't -.- The time is exactly 2.00 am now .Okay lah ,that's all .I'll update again when there's a time .

2010-05-01T23:36:00.004+08:00

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2010-05-01T16:10:00.002+08:00

Yesterday did went out with Keynah Gems ,sister & also bro feroz.Firstly went to Somerset & then meet Keynah at Farrer Park .We decided to eat at Banquet .Then proceed to Bedok to meet Ameerul .He's fun .His friends was also okaay .Slack at his void deck & went to Tampines Mall .Walk around & slack at one of the rooftop since we people have nothing to buy .Keynah dongkey go & fart while snapping pictures .My laugher was like bursting to the highest volume .Bacen kau .I don't know if the guys heard it .Everything was fine but just that had quarrel with ameerul over something & i'm so sorry for that .I know you are really mad but seriously i'm okaay yesterday .Just that you don't know how my face always like .Wahsey ,till now he don't want to talk to me because of that fucking business ): Aiyo .Please lah kay .I don't want to drag it .Alright ,let's not elaborate .Let him cool down .So yeaaah ,i was really pissed off now .I wish no one will call me or even text me .Don't .I don't want anyone to disturb me .I was not in the mood to entertain anyone now .Sorry .But still i enjoyed the day with KeynahLOVE .She make me laugh the most & i also miss my NinaLOVE .After went to Tampines Mall ,slack over to Dayah's crib since there's no one else to slack with .We make a move around 10 pm & i proceed to Woodlands to wait for Busu .Reach there after 1 hour .Then slack with Afad ,Danny ,Boy & also Mat while waiting for busu .Talk & laugh all the way .12 30 am Busu reach & drive home .Home at 1.23 am .Sleepy like fucking hell .Bath & straight to lala land .That's all .I love my two BABYBOOO !

2010-04-28T19:24:00.005+08:00

I'm tired of fighting with you over small things .Seriously .You're acting like a lil fucking biatch .You ,yourself don't even have the word respect in you & you want us to respect you ?Get the hell fuck you man !Maki org tk tentu psl bey expect aku g tehegeh ngn muker kau ?Gi JAHANAM !Aku tk heran .Pagi-pagi da buwat dtg sway .Anw you think the classmate really love you ?Ey bdaak ,prangai da mcm taik ,kau jgn mimpi !Irritating pehr jantan .I don't know what's wrong with you .Always finding people's fault .What the hell you want hah ?!Kau kacau org bley ah ,org kacau balek tao pon nk tunjok muker pukimak kau .Siaksiak .Tk mcm sundal tu .Takley tolerate ah aku ngn bdaak ginik .I'm really pissed off .I don't care if you want to show your cb face inside class .Aku tk pasal .I don't fucking care if you want to spread or even drag this story cos i think this is a small mini tiny KANINAS problem .So i won't be bother to know anything kay FUCK ?AAAAHHH ,hell yeaaah .I'm getting irritated to dirty my blog with elaborating his story all over this post ,so decided to cut it off .

Malay paper was perfectly okaay (: I can understand with every single words .It's not that difficult like English paper .Wahsey ah !Maths !Seram nk mmps .My headache is coming back .
DINNNNG DONNNNNNG !

2010-04-26T19:29:00.003+08:00

Taadaaaaaaaaaaaah !Alright ,something makes me feel weak now .Since yesterday i'm having a terrible headache .I don't know why .Maybe i'm lack of rest .Oh yes ,English paper was okaay just now .Except for paper 2 .Everyone complained that the paper was a bit complicated to understand .Next coming up paper will be Malay paper .I'll try my best to get a best results .HAHHAA .Try jer .I'm just really worried about my Maths & also Science .Fuck that shit man .FULEMAAAK !Finish paper at 11.40 am & slack over to Nina's crib but this time round Raisot tag along .While waiting for babyG ,eat maggie ,on lappy to view people's blog & also listen to songs at youtube ,talk ,laugh & try to get sleep but cannot sleep .Raisot keep telling us not to sleep . Bacen kau !Slack till 4+ pm .Went back with Raisot .Left babyK & babyG .That's all what is happening today .Anw i did enjoy having outings with family for the both days of weekends .It's really fun .Such a long time didn't went out with them .Everyone is been busy with their work .So we children have to understand the situation now .HEE :D Tomorrow i'm taking my off day by not coming to school .I really need a plenty of rest .I feel my body is aching & also weak .Haissh .I'm not strong anymore .Something wrong with the system in my body .Adoii ~Raisot ask we classmate out to Seoul Garden on the 15 May .HAHAHA ,tak sabar btol ni STONE COLD .Sabar menanti for the answer yer dokki .

2010-04-23T19:37:00.003+08:00

Finally i can update something on my blog .Waaaah .Sorry for not updating .Been busy with school & also the network here really sucks .I miss drumming my snare ,like seriously .Two more months then we'll get to perform again .Gosh ,it's damn long .Exams are just next week & i'm not prepared yet.God ,help me ,please .Maths was totally sucks .It's really sucks .I don't understand when Mr Suen teach us .Not even a single thing .Why don't all those maths sums store in my brain automatically ?I get something stored but the thing is ,i will forget easily .What theeeeeee .For science ,I'm totally not there .Mess up my mind with all this studies .OHMY OHMY ,gembengs crew ,shall we go for study ?I need a help for maths .Seriously .Nina !Teach me & Keynah please ?!When isit are we gonna spend the time for study ?Aaaaahhh ,stress aku !I need the time for maths .Haiyoooooooooo .Anw ,the days with you both were really awesome .I enjoyed it & i really love you girls .You make my days up .Although sometimes i talk in a harsh way but still i didn't meant it yaws .I'm happy being with you ladies & i hope it will stays forever .Meleleh aku kejap .So the past few days ,we girls have been slacking over to Nina's crib .Chat ,laughing ,jokes & much much more .Misaki did join us one of the three days .Fun !She's being bullied by us .HAHAHAHAH .Shouting like one crazy lady .Yeaaaah ,tickle her till her face turn into red .Shiok lah kn .Sorry yeaaah ,love (: Isin't that fun ?But there's something much enjoyable .Call it as a GEMBENG CREW . Keynah !Cheer up .Love is no where if it's really a true love babe .Guys won't know how hard will it take to get away .Although you won't tell me who's that person is ,i know the label in your head now .Chill out babe .Get things work up .Be strong sayang .You can't stay in this situation all the way .What makes you think if everything gonna drag till it's really success ?No ,it won't .Unless get the sentence that i've been telling you along the way .Tears won't make things settle down or even make you recover from anything .Keep standing stronger kay babe .I'll be there if you need that advice again .I love you ,GEMBENG CREW !

2010-04-19T14:35:00.002+08:00

I'm in love with this DRUMATIX :D

Thanks people for putting a hard work on this piece of music .

Without you people ,nothing can be like this (:

2010-04-18T01:17:00.002+08:00

Alright ,i'm back .It's been so long since i update .Yeaaah ,been busy with practice & also performance .What a great DRUMATIX .3 solit awesome days .I'm loving it .SO TIREEEEEED ,I SWEAAAAAAR !The performances were really fantastic.It's up high to the sky .I'm sorry being very nervous for the speech .It was my 1st time talking to the public .Nervous like hell man .Everyone looking at me like what & the minah's there make me fuck up .Stare like one mother fooooook .Haahahhaah ,shall ignore actually .Irritating people .So yeaaah ,Mr Ali ,thanks for the pizza .Had a free movie there 'The Clash of the Titans '.It was 3D ,everyone so the kecoh inside the theater but seriously i enjoyed the 3 days with you people .I'm in love with this DRUMATIX !Heh :D Yesterday did went to Nina's crib while waiting for my uncle to fetch me & also on the phone with that Sharil .I'm missin you ass .Hmmm .What is he doing ? -___- Real toooot you Keynah .Keep disturbing me untill i hit my head .Ding Dong kejap .WHAAAT THE .Her pants ----- !Klakar lah kau bach !Kekek betol & uncle fetch me at 8.45 pm .Brother was late .Chicken you .While otw ,otp again with him .Had a great conversation .Coming up performance will be at Takashimaya .End of june .We so gonna do it .I'll update the confirmation date soon .Kay i don't know what else to talk now .What shall i do ?Fucking bored man .Why is everyone sleep this early ?It's only 2.03 am people .TAAAAIK !I'm the only person who's awake .Heh .I have not been getting my rest well .Everyday reach home late .What i do when i reach home is bath ,eat ,sleep & get ready for the next day .School ,practice or even performance .My body is all aching man .Monday i'll get my rest peacefully .Chalobeteh !

2010-04-12T21:40:00.002+08:00

Today rehearsal really make me pissed off man .Buwat malu jer .OHMYGOD .& it's like everyone looking at our performance .Really CRAP ! HANCOR BEDERAI !Luckly it's only the rehearsal .I hope on the actual day we will make the full blast not half way like just now .Paisey like hell siol .We left 1 more day to practice which on WEDNESDAY !& there will be 3 days straight performance .AAAAAHHHHH ,so nervous .Worried about the Drumatix members if they do the same thing again .PRAY HARD TO GOD .So that everything will go smooth .WAKE UP KORANG !I wish Budi will always be infront of us .For sure they won't make any mistakes again .

TODAY WAS SUCKS !

2010-04-11T01:16:00.003+08:00

Yeaaah ,webcam ngan ni RAISOOOOT !Punyer lah biseng .HAHAHA

Tapi fun lah .Actually intent to take more photos but nah ,it's lagging .

Pantat betol .HSSSH !Nemind ,next time will do (:

Hee ,meet at school ey budaak .Kau ni memang sentiase kecoh !

As usually ,i'm still awake (: Cannot sleep due to habit .

Busu accompany me ,he's watching tv & also having his supper .

Supper eat rice ,HAHAHA .Very good ah & anw ,i'm so looking forward for next week .

Busyness strike !So people ,don't ask me out ,i'm very busy next week .

Excited nk mmps but very nervous about the speech thing .OHMYGOD !

Someone help me !

2010-04-10T15:41:00.003+08:00

What more should i say now ?I'm tired of this stupid things .I musn't believe you in the first place .Get your life off now kay .I hate you ,i really do now .I'm pissed off !Thanks for block me anyway .I appreciate it .I don't want to have anything with you anymore .Enough with all your bullshit .AKU PENAAAAT ,SUMPAH !You're so heartless .Say what you want & i don't believe you anymore .Attitude like NABE PUA CHIBYE !AAAAHHHH !Binget nyer aku !Can i kill you for now ?!Why am i so stupid to fall for you hah ?!I don't even think what's going to happen in every single day .YOUR SWEET TALK MOTHER FUCKER NOW CAN PUT INSIDE YOUR POCKET !Go back with your ex ,i don't need that pleased ! Create a new life before i slap you .Don't made that as your reason .Your words won't make me work anymore .Every of the conversation you keep thinking of the memories with her isin't it & now i'm giving you the green light .You're out of my cage .Get your work done.She needs you more ,so let it be .Don't say that sorry or thanks to me because i'm not gonna accept that .I will forgive but not forgetting this fuck things which always happen to me .You're having a good time out there but you don't even bother to know what's going around you .Take things easy like a mother fucker ,who you think you are ?!CB CB CB !I HATE YOU SO MUCH .I hate when you do this to me .Let all this fly so high till we can't see any love between us .Blow it far far away from me .

2010-04-10T00:57:00.005+08:00

Gosh ,I've not being sleep early this few days & even when it's my school days .Eyes keep blinking .Haiya .Yeaah ,Shima will be taking the tee's later in the afternoon .The person last minute call & say there's no neon yellow for the font ,left white -.- So we have no choice .We need it the tee's next week .Not enough time to discuss all .Do what's the best (: Doesn't matter .Currently now i'm bloghopping to people's blog & plan to change my blogskin .It's very irritating for visitor to read my blog .Heh ,sorry ey korang .Errm ,so yah .Everyone has gone to sleep .I'm alone .Brother sleep over to his friends crib .If not ,he's the one who always accompany me (: Raisot just went to sleep .Hmmph .What to do now ?So fucking bored .The whole entire day at home .WHAT THEEEE !& yeaaah ,my busu get choosen for the pilot thingy .He already went for the 2nd interview & he get it .What he need is just to wait for the check up & then he will go for the pilot course .Ohmy busu ,i'm very happy for you (: You're the best uncle !Just now he did bring alot of food .4 whole of spring chicken ,fried noodles ,fried rice .Heh .Sedaap btol .Sit at home i will gain weight easily .Nehmind ,the fatter ,the cutter .& bdaak ,i already miss you ): Mane kau pegi hah ?!Susah lah dekni .Try to understand me now ,can ?How i wish you're mine .Time will flies so fast .As fast as a cobra .hahah ,KENTALS !Okay seriously ,my eyes are heavy now but i can't sleep .Why are you guys sleepng this early ?We should enjoy every single day tao .But i'm too enjoying .Hah ,just now get to know one new friend .Name ,eppie .He's the only person call me irahh cos he love my SYAHIRAH name !Kecoh de but cool lah that bdaak .Banyak story to talk about .Kay ,shall not eleborate much .I miss toitois so fucking lot .Mane ntah diehr hilang .Letak kat tempat besar pon ley try nk escape .I've been take care of him for like 3 years + tao & now gone .He's size is my pump size .Big kan .Sedeh aku .Si Klyte plak da inalilah .Left with Boney .My love .I hope you're not gone too .I love my turtle so much but left 1 jer =.= Hmm .So yah ,Boney don't go kay (: Hah .Now i'm started to miss those pets .Takpe ,takpe .Yay !mama is cooking for me LAKSA on sunday !SEDAAAAAP !& Sunday i'm buying my vans shoe too .Alright ,that's all .

SELAMAT MALAM AWAK :D

2010-04-09T02:49:00.017+08:00

I'm sorry for letting you down

I'm sorry if i made you think too much .Your mood change when we talk things over .Yup ,i can give you time to get settle down & i really wish she won't be calling you or even text you again .Haish ,Why is everything get fuck out after this ?I don't know what more she wants from you .It's been days she keep disturbing you .I hope there's nothing that you hide it from me .I knew it .You gonna change after meeting her & yes it's really happened .You don't have to thank me for the advice .I just need you stay strong & let the past to be a memories .I know it's hard for you to keep moving on if that girl calling you all day .I understand that ,dear .It's going harder where i have to accept this , give you sometime .I've being in that shoe & i know how it feels .The feeling like you are killing yourself & you are killing me too now , for keep me thinking of all this everyday.There's also tears rolling down my cheeks .AAAHHHH !STREEEESSSSSS DE !Kau mcm CB semcm ah POOOOOHKEEY !Can i kill you ,lady ?Nabs btol .I'm not asking you to get stress about all this .I want you to be always happy with a wide smile on your face .I need you to keep standing stronger .Takm ikot kn sngt kay .Sampai bile nak jadi lembik cmni ?You can't stays in this situation anymore .Keep walking to the brighter path .

2010-04-09T00:05:00.004+08:00

Okaay ,hello .It's been few days since the last time i update my blog .Busy with batucada practice & school too .Aiyaah ,date for the performance keep changing here & there .So the confirm date will be 15 & 16 April .On the 17th ,will be having at school for speech day .Adoii ,sumpah ,i'm freaking tired with the practice .Tak ley angkat .One kind of the tiredness .Fwuuh .So just now did have rehearsal for speech day & continue for practice .Budi been teaching us about the move so it will look nice & natural on us .Yeaaah ,he's fucking cool but at times he will show his sarcastic face & from there ,we'll know that he's been putting alot of afford & also his patience .Hee :D Common lah ,bdaak-bdaak baru nak belajar .Sabar mesti harus lebih (: After batucada ,straight away go home .Reach around 7 +pm .Bath ,eat & have a rest .Shiok betol .And yes ,i'm trying to forget about that thingy .So i won't get stress again .The best .Dektu semangat 5 minit jer .KEYNAH ! I'll help you kay dear .No worries .Sumer beres .Hee (: And nak tao something ? Mater aku ni da berat berkilo-kilo siol .Stoin jer .Takpe ,endure kay ateen .So yaah ,been chatting with keynah now (: That's all .Will seldom update .

2010-04-07T02:21:00.002+08:00

I have nothing to say .He's online -.-

Chatting all the way

2010-04-06T23:35:00.005+08:00

I never thought all this will happen .Seriously .Maybe the conversation makes you to turn around .Who knows ?haish .I just can't take this feeling .I hate to have all this .Why me ?Why i'm the one ?!I'm not that strong to cry everyday .I have other more things to do but whenever i'm doing my stuff ,it will turn back to remind you .What's the G you have in yourself & what happen after you meet her ?It's been few days you didn't online .Why ?What's going wrong ?!Why are muting yourself ?I don't get it .Did she take you away again ?Isit gonna be forever .I'm really hurt .Really really hurt .I hope when you be gone ,you'll never return .I don't want to have this feeling every single time .I'm tired .What i need is just the love .The love that you've been telling me .Where ,isit gone ?Or it's hidden somewhere .After get to meet her ,you went wrong .What's the key that she's been using ?Why now ,why not before this .God ,what's the next challenge will be ?Isit going to be something like this ?Haish .Sharil ,i hope you'll online & tell me what's going wrong with you .Why have you been away from me ?I want to know the reason .If you really has went back to your path ,then i'll stop this walking .I just need the truth & where's the point is .Don't keep me waiting for this answer .Maybe they are right ,maybe i did get my hopes up too high .Maybe it was in over my head .Maybe i am the stupid one for ever thinking that you really loved me ,but maybe ,just maybe .I'm tired being the one .I'll walk off & never return .My tears is the witness .This tears has been accompany me for this days .Friends & also the batucada members ,i'm sorry for showing the anger on all of you .I'm really pissed .Ignore me when i'm showing my fucking face cos i'm gonna say something afterwards .I'm so sorry .Something has been bothering me this few days & that's make me feel everything sucks .Sometimes when you hold out for everything ,you'll walk away with nothing .The memories are worth the pain .Sometimes i just have to hold my head up high, blink away the tears & say goodbye .No matter what you do or say to me ,when come running back ,when you need me again ,i'll be here ,i'll be right here waiting for you .

Wanting you is hard to forget ,loving you is hard to regret ,losing you is hard to accept but even with all the hurt i felt ,letting go is the most painful .

2010-04-06T08:08:00.007+08:00

Jealous ,Dissapointed & feel like crying at the same time

Jealous because of you meet someone yesterday ,Dissapointed because you put me away ,Feel like crying when you makes me think negatively .

Total of it ,My heart is broken into million pieces

2010-04-04T21:24:00.003+08:00

I don't know what's wrong with this mood

I feel really sucks of the day

2010-04-04T02:40:00.005+08:00

I never expect things to be in this way .Yes ,it's true .All happened in reality .I wasn't dreaming .I wish it could be last ,forever .It's been 3 years & now then ?Woaaah .Maybe you choose me as right one but only god knows which is the true love & i would say you're the right one ,dearest .You can ask the person who related to you .I told her everything before & yes ,your wishes come true as in everything goes smooth (: I know ,things surround us will be totally different now .How i wish it's goona be better ,i hope so .Don't make me lost hope kay boy .It's not who you are to the world ,it's who you are to me .It's not how many times i say `i love you ', it's how much i really do .Finally ,the thoughts that i've been waiting is there for me .You may say something different but you can't run from facts & facts are what you told me just now .

2010-04-03T16:18:00.003+08:00

So yes ,did sleep late yesterday at 4.16 am .Chatting with Sharil ,ana's cousin .Till 4+ & he went to meet his friends .Haaa ,so sweet lah he .Talking about the past where we ever contact last time .Kecoh maan .Yeaaah ,we'll hang out together one day .Hee :D I'm shocked when you tell me that ,TOUCHED DE .It's been 3 years we've known each other & now we still but not that much ,i hope it's still tight (: Things are coming back .Really ,it's gonna happen if god allow us .So yaah ,when will the date be ?I'm looking forward .Yes ,you remind me those days & i'm lovin it .I remmbr where you sing a song titled ' bila rindu ' to me (: Mcm sweeet nk mmpos kn kau .Yeaah ,you'll be happy when i'm bck to S'pore .